I am the ghost of a heart and a head in the clouds

I am the ghost of a smile through the holes in my mouth

I am the ghost of a timeline that worked itself out

Now I know nothing but the monsters we make of ourselves

But you paint this picture of life that I'm blind to

Too many grays I cannot leave behind

And I'm not a promising future

I'm only a past

I'm still looking back

They are the faces fit to a mold and remade

They are the big shots and small talks and half-hearted hardly-earned pay

She is the voice that screams, "you'll lose love if you can't escape"

But I'm losing it already so there's no difference anyways

But you paint this picture of life that I'm blind to

Too many grays I cannot leave behind

And I'm not a promising future

I'm only a past

I'm still looking back

We are hell-bent and obsessed

With ends and beginnings

And we have our hearts set on forgetting

Everything in between them

But I am only a ghost, and looking back is all that I know

I am not a promising future, but I promise you I'm not a past

So I'll dig up some dirt, and I'll pray for what it's worth

That I'm half the man you say that I am

'Cause I believe in these words

And these words are enough for now

I believe in something

I will not let you down

I cannot let you down