I need to take a minute just to talk about my life

Cos there's just a bunch topics that I need to bring to light

I mean I grew up so misunderstood I swear I tried to deal

With all of these emotions but I failed so I concealed

And everyone just looked at me like "boy is something wrong?"

I looked back and told them "no I'm fine!" so moving on

And lately I've been feeling kinda lost and so withdrawn

Man, life was kinda beautiful now everything is gone

I mean you wake up in the morning and you have a father figure

Who you're looking up to trying to be or even to be bigger

What happens when the person is not there to be your guide?

Life is an enigma cos nobody tells you why

I tried to keep up with the pace, I really tried to find my place

I'm trying to look for where I fit in so I'm arguing with fate

While I'm searching for the money I'm broker no real estate

Life is no rehearsal, you don't get a second take

The irony in it is they say life is like a movie

I bought my ticket 20 years ago I'm getting through it

I never skipped a scene did it for the movie magic

You struggle for the laughs but the pain is automatic

I talk about my life cos I'm trying to make decisions

I'm cutting off fake friends sharp with precision

That means I'm being careful, I'm tired of being reckless

I had to get experience for me to learn a lesson

When my dreams come kicking in I want to be prepared

Cos I'm scared of disappointment so I'm facing all my fears

And if push comes to shove I know at least I tried

I protected all I cared about my fortitude's my mind

My pride is always on the surface trying to reach out

And so I put my words in music just so I could speak out

I do it for the loners thinking that they always miss out

On everything, I hope to God that you would never freak out

I guess there's never true endings just new beginnings

I've been through hell and now I'm back...I know I'm only human

And late at night I lay down and I close my eyes to sleep

I just turn around to heaven and I pray my soul to keep

Cos I let go of the demons and the monsters in the closet

I'm talking bout my fears and the voices, to be honest

You know it's crazy how I see things clearly

I pushed away everybody couldn't get near me

As I'm painting vivid pictures of my past within my present

I hope to see a future with a legacy...a legend

Sometimes I wonder why I'm fascinated by death

It's not new to me I wonder if there's a heaven or hell...well...

[Female Voice]

Hey…It's been a while, I hope you’re good

I’ve kinda been trying to get you for a while now

I guess I miss you but whatever

Call me when you get this

Enough about the pain

I'm good with switching lanes

I'm super with the words man I found my Lois lane

This rap game is funny cos I swear we're not the same

They wanna see the God (cthagod) and I ain't talking Charlemagne

The truth is I'm stuck with the same old story

So I made a new persona and let go of the old me