Feel Again - Intellectual

I always had a dream of being a movie star

I want to dress the way the woman and movies are

I Want to be the shootin stars with the shoes and cars

But its truly hard when you don't know who you are, are, are

I never fit in a popular crowd

So what can i do so my dad and my mama be proud

And friends talk about me when I'm not around

But the pills make me feel like I'm on top of the clouds

They say drugs make it all go away

I swear drugs make it go all the way

Today i got bully it was such a long day

I swear shooting up the school is like the only way

I hope I can trade my soul today for a new one to crucify

You'll pray your car will flip over and you will die

Or that your plane will crash because between you and I, Im to scared to be missed

Hook:

I wish I can feel

I wish I can feel again

Touch something real again

I Just wish I can feel

What you say

I wish I can feel

What you say

I just want to feel again

Touch something real again

2nd verse:

I hate when guy say that I'm beautiful

I hate when guy say that i'm cute

I hate guy tell me that I'm so funny

I feel so ugly

Cause beautiful girls don't stand alone honey

I look in the mirror what the fuck you want from me

I look at my body and feel so disgusted

My ex said i don't have enough tits

I hate my fuckin lips, I hate my fuckin nose

I hate my fuckin hips, so I hate my fuckin clothes

I hate the way it fits, I hate the way it shows

Everything I try to hide away is now expose

When I hear the laughter

Im the one they talking bout

When I hear the whisper

Im the one they talking bout

I swear I'm the one they talking bout

Everytime I'm messin up

Im the one they talking bout

Bet you if I die right now

Ain't nothin to talk bout, no

Cause I don't think anybody will notice, no

I don't think anybody will notice

Not anyone at all, no

I don't think anybody notice, notice, notice, no

I don't think anybody will notice

Not anyone at all..

Hook:

I wish I can feel

I wish I can feel again

Touch something real again

I Just wish I can feel

What you say

I wish I can feel

What you say

I just want to feel again

Touch something real again

Hey

Every other day I cut my arm

It's not because I love the pain

It's because i just want to feel something

I wish i wasn't so afraid to just cut the vain

And love is so overrated oh i fuckin hate it

Im never the woman walking on lover lane

I bet you if i die right now, you probably would'nt remember my fuckin name would you

I need someone to love me somebody to care

Im crying inside, Im praying somebody can hear

I mean every other cut is for every time I…

I needed someone and no body was there

I feel so worthless, I just need attention

And this depression surrounds me in three dimension

And when I dreaming I see demons with evil intentions

And screaming isn't easing the detention

Even my parents think i need intervention

I need love

They think i need drugs

I just probably need a hug

Im praying they be the first ones to see the blood

Before it go down the drain, underneath the tub

But i bet they never notice