Makeshift Idol - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

Is it hard to realize

That I don't want this hazy night to be immortalized

I see your camera's pointed at me but I don't like to be seen through artificial eyes

This might be me at large, I'm not in charge

But I don't think that's something for you to decide

I'll have my memory and if I don't that's not something I would like to see revised

Well she said: "Carve your makeshift idol out of misery"

Yet my mother's thrown off balance by its gravity

Now it sits looming in the corner and it's waiting for the

Downfall of myself and those who try to follow me

Deserting dressing room is invoking impending doom

And I don't seem able to fight off the glorious cloak of gloom

Insecurity the cure, keep the ratrace running

No one here is pure, it's the light we're shunning

Your self-centered solar system screams youth is unforgiving

Reality is rich and life is for the living

I see the blue [?] running

We'll see the pictures running

I've been praying [?]

I see the picture running

We'll see the [?] scrolling

Now pull out your guts and cut out your eyes

For my holding on too long I will pay the price

Just present me the bill

I'll swallow the bitter pill

I feel winter's chill

Don't ask you to sing about me

Just want you to think about me

But oh forget my faith

Don't go telling me it's too late

Cause I've been picking up pieces

My self deception decreases

All the boasting it ceases

As I've been noticing creases

I got served my slice of humble pie

And cleared the plate with taste

It unnerved me to face my own lie

So I cleared the plate with haste

See you burst the bubble of the motion picture of my ego

Mess around with my head, follow us to places we go

Want to spend this night being carefree

So I just hope that you don't see

This liquid that drips out of me

Not blue, not red but burgundy