[Verse 1]

You got marker on your hand

Holding shoulders, I saw a policeman drive by

Heel to dirt I felt that couldn't cut my wrist

And I spent hours on

[Refrain]

I'd have held myself much closer then

I'd have held myself much closer then

[Chorus]

It's my party and I'll cry if I want to

Hearing personal last names

[Verse 2]

Never felt like I got off that train

In the back of your apartment I would lay down

Feel the burden of that carpet

Brush my cheek and I spent hours on

[Refrain]

I'd have held myself much closer then

[Chorus]

It's my party and I'll cry if I want to

Hearing personal last names

Calm the stutter I could lie like you have to

Just enough to make you wait

[Verse 2]

Pooling like the blood around my knuckles

Or the lake around your parents house

Or the cut along your eyelid

Heavy in the way I trace my losses

In the glass where I had only stood

I could lapse around your offers

Feigning like you don't know what to call it

In the pace along your brother's eye

Or the tremble in your hands now