My downward spiral of self-destruction

So hard to live in my own skin

My biggest fear is self-reflection

The mirror shows me who I am

A liar, thief, manipulator

Always choosing the wrong path

Always making wrong decisions

I will always be the loneliest of men

[Chorus]

Self-loathing is my home

The pills they ease the pain

I'm drowning in alcohol

Opiates, my true love

The needle finds the vein

Cowardly, wanting death to call

[Solo: J. Velez]

To feel that drug is all I live for

To feel its love wash over me

My body craves, my mind, it wants more

It's always calling out to me

In every shadow and every corner

Always searching out for me

I suffer alone with my hatred

This wretched agony that is me

[Rep. Chorus]

[Solo: J. Trenczer - J. Velez]

Tomorrow I'll try to recover

I'll reach out to my family

Just one night with my lover

"Hello death, you've come for me?"