Over the years, changed what I believed

The things I would think

The things I said I’d never do

Would probably be in disbelief

If I spoke of the things

I’ve tried and now I can’t undo

Although there’s lots of good I achieved

Secrets occurring

In private that they never knew

Sorry to all those that I deceived

Not my upbringing

I was taught to have a different view

I’d fight my mind but I

Got exhausted

I’m tired

Been goody goody my whole life

Bеst behavior all the time

Nеver cussed

Never smoked

Never tried

I’d fight my mind ‘cause I

Got tempted

Won't lie

Been scared of that my whole life

Family addiction on both sides

Never drank

Never blank

Never mind

Over the years new trauma on me

Changed who I would be

I’m not disappointed just confused

The mindset that I had on repeat

Hard to admit defeat

Hard to say older me excused

It’s not that I no longer agree

It’s just now that I see

Why others thought the way they do

I’m more open to less of extremes

Somewhere in between

That allows mistakes to be made too

I’d fight my mind but I

Got exhausted

I’m tired

Been goody goody my whole life

Best behavior all the time

Never cussed

Never smoked

Never tried

I’d fight my mind ‘cause I

Got tempted

Won't lie

Been scared of that my whole life

Family addiction on both sides

Never drank

Never blank

Never mind

I once told you if I ever tried

Please take it as a sign

That somethings isn’t right

But maybe now thats a lie

I once told you if I ever tried

Please take it as a sign

That somethings isn’t right

But maybe now thats a lie