Suicide Note - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

Fuck the world- I’m out this bitch!

Twenty years of the of bullshit, twenty years in this

Heh, well, yo, you could tell God I quit

Throw in the towel, I’m spent, every last dollar’s spent

I don’t got a god damn cent- rock bottom (Yeah)

I’m still poppin’ them Kolonopin

Cause everything that I’ve worked toward was peanuts

In the grand scheme of my life

And it hurts more when I grew up worshipping in Jesus (Whoo!)

I’m livin’ a nightmare (Yeah)

But I like scary, suicidal thoughts

Guess tonight, I’ll be peace-in’ outta here

[Interlude]

(*dark voices*)

[Verse 2]

It’s a cold world, ain’t it?

And there ain’t no savior, when you scream messiah

But at night you dancin’ with Satan

And the plan was simple, I’d sell my soul and be famous

See the plan was simple, until we made our first payment

Now, face it, we are just human by nature

So why are we ruinin’ nature?

It’s human nature, money done changed us, gave us evil and hatred

But, we’re not inherently racist, I blame the country that raised us, Mason

Media’s keeping us brainless, feeding us cheap entertainment

'Cause they know that knowledge is dangerous

And knowledge is probably the brunt of my anger

Aim this gun at my brains with one in the chamber (*revolver spinning*)

(Ahhhhh!) So fuck the world, I’ve had it!

Any last words? Yeah, Donald Trump’s a faggot!

(*gunshot*)

[Chorus]

Goodbye, cruel world, I know I was no saint

Father, before I go, forgive all my anger

The dirt on my soul, my final payment

The suicide note, goodbye cruel world

I look to the sky without a tear in my eye

I don’t know where I’ll be goin’ (*revolver spinning*)

Not a reason to cry, I’ll be at peace when I die

This is my suicide note

[Verse 3]

You done gave it all you had, kid

But we told you from the start

That nobody’d give a fuck about your raps

Cause you suck, bombastic

Fuck you, Luke Gawne

You wasted the future we could have had, it’s tragic

God, and you must hate me, I know

"Like, what the fuck you doing, chasin’ rap?"

I don’t know, but it’s time

I can’t wait no more, I been on my grind

Laid it all on the line, I'm going for broke!

Rap was my callin’, everything that I’ve wanted

But to be honest, all I wanted was to make a better life for my mama

So father, please, before the light

If I could make it through the night

Without my life being squandered a little bit longer

I promise I’ll take my shot and accept the consequences that follow

I’ve pondered the impossible odds

And God, if I fail on this conquest

Falter and fall to the bottom

A starving artist, impoverished

Just know that I’m sorry for what I’ve failed to accomplish

But if I conquer, persevere, and show the world what I got just

Then maybe we can re-write the storybook of Luke Gawne

The kid who hit rock bottom, died and came back to life

Inspired and decided to fight, to get another try

It’s that time, I’m hyped

My final ride, it’s like "What if this the last song I write?"

There’s so much left to say

Quick, let me get a mic

I’d like to address my family, friends, and fans who was on my side

I’ll love you guys until the day the sun don’t rise

And for the one’s who lied and prayed for my demise

Then say goodbye, goodbye cruel world!

When it’s over and the legends are told

Will I then bask in eternal status, or ash the inferno?

Don’t ask me a word, I’m too passionate, but passed being heard

I done smashed every hurdle I passed, while still lapping in circles

It ain’t no accident- I crashed into the girder of rap

Just to assure I murder each track

Got back up, wiped the dirt off my back, and

This isn’t suicide, it’s simply do or die

A goodbye to the future, I once knew but threw aside