[Gambit]

You know, this is a true story

[Verse 1]

In high school, I was not a regular student

I was one that all the counselors begged to be prudent

A well-known truant, I'd bounce from the session like, "Screw it"

And established a reputation as a negative influence

Better get to moving, you'll never amount to nothing

If you're mouthing off and fuckin' around when you should be studying

I cared about nobody including myself, just troubling

All of the other kids with my troubles as they were bubbling

Shedding that blood again, better laugh when they're asking me

If I made it to class or if I actually passed with a C

I'd ask pretty please for an A, they'd say "You have to be kidding me!"

Cause I bent the rules like plastic elasticity

A lot of cats sat back, they wasn't saying shit

When I was staying there I made it clear I fucking hated it

My mother was unaware her son was very jaded quick

But ain't nobody care and I needed a way to escape the shit

And so I ran away

Every damn day, I was shirking work with a plan to play

I got suspensions for skippin' on my detentions

'till I was essentially serving a sentence they demanded I pay

I thought it was clear to me

I hated everyone, when in fact, that was merely

A reflection of my own personal insecurity

And a direct manifestation of the hurt and fear in me

And if you look back, honestly it's sad to see

It's like my life had gone from comedy to tragedy

I told myself there wasn't a soul in Hell as mad as me

And that being alone was the only way to live happily

And that's a load of crap, although I traveled all alone

I was only trapped by the certain fact I was on my own

Then when I returned to the cul-de-sac that I called my home

I was hurtin' bad, but I learned to cap it inside the dome

But if you were to ask I'd laugh it off and doubt it

Mostly for the fact the past had hurt too bad to talk about it

I learned to act like I was happy when I was actually

Mad exasperated and found that it was all confounded

[Bridge]

I was a kid then

Just tryna fit in with a clique that I couldn't get in

Would it have made a difference if I could have been let in

Among the names of these faces that I'm already forgettin'?

Or would it have been a detriment and a bit of a limit

To my existence so life would look different every minute within it?

Whether it did or it didn't, I still remember

The very beginning, standing there in the distance

[Verse 2]

Smoking bogies like the older kids, but wasn't feeling bigger yet

I'd sneak away from classes just to have another cigarette

Casually come back in actin' like I hadn't had a pack

Inside my jacket, with some crap imagined 'case they figured it

Out-side, I was about my free time

That's why I'd make a beeline straight to the treeline behind

The parking lot's green wall, like "Everything will be fine!"

Hoping nobody saw me walking in the meantime

I took my pimp ass to gym class

And I was smoking brick hash up in the ceiling rafters getting whiplash

Feeling that afterwards I'd have to turn and dip fast

So that no bastard learned about me burning half the big stash

And it was plain to see

That Mary Jane had seemed to be taking away the pain in me

At least, I stated it every day and I'd make believe

That vapin' weed replaced the complacency taking place in me

Like chokin' on smoke would maybe fill the vacancy

That stay concealed away while I'm waiting for healing patiently

I hated feeling the latent anger awakening

And so I'd smoke my dome to a coma until my brain could sleep

It's clearly a crooked, morbid tune

When sleeping is the only thing you're really looking forward to

You sport a blue aura, like "What am I supposed to do?"

Feeling like you're dirt and hurting everybody close to you

I was so confused, battered and tattered and worn

Every day I drank up out a chalice of malice and scorn

I'd wonder why I had to blindly abide

By a society in which I never actually asked to be born

And they detested me

That's why my first day of Senior year, they arrested me

They made it clear they hated me in the way they would talk

So I had to walk with security guards next to me

I was especially perplexed they expected me

To present my best behavior when school brought out the worst in me

The biggest test for me wasn't answering questions

And the lessons that I learned had nothing to do with the courses, see?

Yes, it was torturous staying where I was forced to be

And my distorted dreams made me feel what a pain it'd bring

But if I'm being real, all the pain that I'd see and feel

Was just for me to build who I am, and I wouldn't change a thing

Self-neglect turned to self-respect

I discovered love for myself and the rest had fell in check

When I discarded all the weight off of my swelling neck

I saw the Cards of Fate, and I started with quite the telling deck

So now the geeky kid

From Coginchaug gon' climb to the top whether or not you believe in him

A lot of kids when from mocking the class comedian

To dropping jaws after they poppin' his CD in

Gambit