Bizarre Affection

By Future Teens

On Deliberately Alive

Released on March 12, 2021

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[Verse 1]

I got your ornament

Thanks again I guess

I didn’t forget

Just wasn’t sure what to say

I miss you too and all

It’s nothing personal

Can’t keep traditions

From a distance anymore


[Chorus 1]

I've tried to forget about that night in Connecticut

When I laid on the ground and begged for an answer

I think I get it now

God damn, I was panicked/off base

There couldn’t be anyone else until there was you


[Verse 2]

Remember when we walked

Back home last Halloween

Thought we were fighting

Turns out we were just upset

Not with each other but

Mad at the circumstance

Not enough weekend to get back what we gave away


[Chorus 2]

I still can't forget about that night on the lower east

When I cried at the bar while you gave me your answer

I think I get it now

God damn, I was selfish

There can’t be anyone else until there’s no you


[Bridge]

Try to find the common threads

Pull them out tie off the ends

Patch the holes as best I can

A little less of who I’ve been


[Chorus 3]

But I won’t forget about that night in Sennott Park

When you said you’re in love with me and that’s why it’s over

I see it clearly now

God damn, I’m avoidant (some things never change)

I wish I’d been anyone else when I was with you


[Outro]

I can remember now how bizarre affection felt

When I couldn’t normalize forgiving myself

The next time around (if I get one)

God damn, I’ll do better (late than never)

I can’t be anyone else, so why pretend to

Look back on the person I was as if anything's improved

I keep asking for help getting out when the only way is through

Maybe once nobody’s left that’ll solve the issue