Sometimes I feel like this life is a fever dream and pretty damn soon I'll wake up screaming

Is anybody out there feeling just the way I do

Cause nothing's making sense yet

And I still have my regrets

Can't take back all the things that came before

No

No

I'm trying to turn back the clock again

To make sense of the mess that's in my head

I'm lighting fires just to choke on the smoke

I always choke on the smoke again

I've had my setbacks before the relapse

Lost track of dead ends and bad decisions

I've got a lot to say but words won't be enough for you

I've got a lot to prove but ain't got much to show

Ain't got much to show

I'm trying to turn back the clock again

To make sense of the mess that's in my head

I'm lighting fires just to choke on the smoke

I always choke on the smoke again

There's just so much I can take before I self destruct

So used to seeing an end so now I'm giving up

I put my heart on the line to break it time after time

I need to make this stop

I'm trying to turn back the clock again

To make sense of the mess that's in my head

I'm lighting fires just to choke on the smoke again

I've wanted a reason up till now

To move on and let go of the things I don't know

I'm crying a river just to drown myself again