Ego Death

By Fumar

Released on September 14, 2018

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[Intro]

The ego and id intertwined

Imperfect harmony

Universally defined

By the mind inside

Who am I?


[Verse]

Who am I?

A motherfucker that was born to die

Two minds collide and intertwine

It must be my

Psyche divided I'm tending to depend on mine

From outside

I think I’m maybe seeming way out of line

So the id is on a mission

Division within the system

Like my ego locked up in a fucking prison

Ego in remission inside

But I don't really wanna die

But I feel that I'm defied

To find a purpose in my eyes

Why I gotta proclivity to negativity?

It’s written up in my DNA

It's in my history

I been an adolescent fucking with manic depression

Got hexed in a vex

Forever living in repression

Heaven sent was the medicine

Steadily tokin' the herb

I relax in a lie

It's readily calming my nerves

In a word I'm disturbed

Mental state approaching absurd

Try to be even but the balance getting perturbed

Deserved? Well maybe it is

I live inside a fallacy

Honestly it's a part of my illogical dichotomy

Partially up and down it goes

My frame outta control

Wander in confusion never know where it'll go

Took a moment to behold that the ego is under tow

By the demons within my soul

And they screaming fit in the mold

I don't know anymore

I don’t know what to think

Too much shit on my mind

On the verge of the brink

Taken over inside

By the darkness behind

The things I cannot decide

Wishing I could rewind

Complacency and vacancy from id

I never really wanted

Wanted to fly

Wanted to die

Wanted to become departed

And it started when I noticed that I look at myself different

Then they all do when they see me what I see is insufficient

The initial response was suicide

But instead I survive

Nevertheless

Instead of death

I let my ego decline


[Chorus]

Ego Death

Ego Death

I don’t really know why they see you the way they do

I don't really know why you can’t see the same way too

Ego blamed in my eyes

The mirror provide the view

Ego laying supine

The id is running askew

I don't really know why

They see you the way they do

I don't really know why

You can't see the same way too

Ego drained in decline

I wanted to start anew

Id has taken over

The ego cannot renew

I don’t really know why

They see you the way they do

I don't really know why

You can't see the same way too

Ego blamed in my eyes

The mirror provide the view

Ego laying supine

The id is running askew

I don't really know why

They can see you the way they do

I don't really know why

You can't see the same way too

I don't really know why

They see you the way they do

Maybe you been lying

Or maybe they all be lying to you

Maybe they been lying to you

Or maybe you've been lying to yourself


[Outro]

The ego dead

Relying on the id instead

Instead of conscious decision

It treads within noxious imprecision

Division within the system

Systemic to the sickness of the whole

Whole being shattered and scattered

Instinctual reactions take control

Control over the soul

Because it has no where else to go

Allow the pain inside to hide

Until excised to become exposed

Once exposed, too painful to show

The ego continues to go

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