[Intro: Gristle]

Alright, we got Minus up to bat! (Yeah!)

Tell them who you are! (Baby!)

They wanna know! (Come on! Come on! Come on!)

Let's have some fun (Fukkfaace!)

Let's go! (Let's go!)

[Verse 1: xMINUSx]

I used to be fat, now I'm kinda fat again

And I used to rap, now I try to rap again

I guess I've come full circle, back to where it all began

But a lot happened in between, I've been in like a hundred bands

Hold up, real quick, let me try to name them all

The Empire’s Collapse, Hollowed Out, and Neverfall

Alright, that's еnough, there’s still ninety-sеven more

So let's move this shit along, 'cause I can tell you're getting bored

I lost all sense of identity, now I’ve reinvented me

Or maybe reverted back to an earlier version of me

I miss some aspects of the old me, my old life

But I'm fuckin' sick of trying, way too tired to fight

In some ways, the thinner, cooler version of me

Might've just been the worst fucking version of me

I had an existential crisis, or maybe just midlife?

I kind of fell apart, deeply questioning what’s wrong or right

[Interlude: Gristle, xMINUSx]

What is this shit?

It was supposed to be fun

I'm, like, sad now

What did you do?

I don't know, it just, I don't know

Well, get it back on track

Okay, fine, here we go

[Verse 2: xMINUSx]

So I asked a doctor for some help, instead they sent me letters

A-D-H-D and O-C-D, so now I’m better

I mean, I'm really not, but I guess it kinda helped

Since I'm told it's always good to understand yourself

Yeah, A-D-H-D, the impulsive type

Which I've honestly been dealing with all my life

Built these rigid mechanisms that sorta help me

But the doctors say that doing that is not very healthy

Specified O-C-D rumination type

Now that one's always been a bit more of a fight

My thoughts get so disturbing, and I'm stuck on a loop

I need to clear my mind, but I don't know what to do

Sometimes the best way to snap out is to scream out loud

Then punch myself in the head until I drown it all out

It wasn't just letters, the doctor also gave me these:

"Anhedonia" and "dysthymia," whatever that shit means

[Interlude: Gristle, xMINUSx]

Okay, listen, I'm actually depressed now

Stop this, turn it around

You're depressed? I'm depressed!

That's what "dysthymia" means!

Why would I know that?

I don't know!

Fix it!

[Verse 3: xMINUSx]

But that shit don’t define me, it's just part of my life

We all got our own issues, I'm sure you do too, right?

I’m not seeking sympathy, just talking about my shit

Keeping it real in the music, instead of fuckin' faking it

I still get through every day, got my job, climb the ladder

I got my people, I've let 'em down, but I'm trying to do better

I had my music, though I guess I kinda quit my band

Moved away when shit got tough, just packed it up and ran

But now I make these songs, which helps to fill the void

Somehow creating music helps me feel less destroyed

Outside of all that, I fill my life with things to pass the time

Things to help distract and feel a little less empty inside

But I'm tired of the routine, and I need something to change

A lot of nights I go to sleep hoping that I don't wake up again

Not because I hate my life, just because I'm sick of trying

Fuckin' sick of fighting, so I dream about the peace of dying

[Interlude: Gristle, xMINUSx]

You were doing so good, damn it, you were doing so good

What happened?

I don't know, it just kind of went there

Well, don't talk about it, be about it

Turn this shit around, let's go

No promises

[Verse 4: xMINUSx]

I spend a lot of time hoping for disasters and apocalypse

Some kinda global tragedy would probably do the trick

I just wanna break the rhythm, life feels like a prison

I guess I'm just a victim of a thing called Lachesism

I know it's got a name, which means I’m not the only one

And I think that deep down we all know that something's really wrong

Is it fucked up, the most romantic image I can dream

Would be to unravel the very fabric of society?

No more expectations, no pleasantries, no obligation

Maybe when it's all gone, I'll find some peace and relaxation

You might think that I'm just fucking making this up

After all we just went through, with fuckin' covid and such

I fucking loved covid, well, the lockdown part, at least

Not so much all the people that are now deceased

And the concentric rings of social change kinda suck

But staying home for a few months to play Animal Crossing was dope as fuck

[Outro: Gristle, xMINUSx]

Wow, you're really ending the song saying that you loved covid?

I don't know, I guess so

That's not a good thing, you can't say that

I- I know!

It was a tragedy for a lot of pe-

Are you done with the song yet? Are you finally done?

Yeah, yes

Alright, oh my God

Okay, listener, go refill your Diazepam prescription, I guess

What the fuck? I'm sorry, okay

You should be sorry! God

Okay, hopefully the next song's more happy, I guess

Let's see

No promises

God damn it