They told me time would heal

And this hurt would fade

But this pain I feel

Won't go away

I want to be my old self

Just for a while

Maybe then I could manage

To fake a fucking smile

So I kick and scream

I push and shove

Because I know

Your ego outgrew my love

And I still can't bear

To see your face

Because the one who wore it once

Has been replaced

Your putrid scent still lingers here

This place reeks of regret and fear

A shrine to the callous, to the obtuse

A testament to your abuse

Do I hate myself?

Or do I hate you?

Or is this some kind of fucked up feeling

That's outgrown me too?

I miss those days

When I could hold you close

And my rage-fuelled fits

Were just thorns on a rose

A small dent in me

But I was still whole

A complete human being

Until you left me cold

In the black of night

I'd be lying awake

Then a blinding light

And the bed would vibrate

So I'd open my eyes

And I'd check the phone

I'd see your name and smile

Because I knew I wasn't alone

But those days are dead

Dead as can be

Dead as I am inside

Dead as you are to me