I don't know how to be

What I wanted to be when I was five

Sometimes blue eyes, sometimes green

Bike rides, snow hikes, and Christmas lights

Sometimes freezing, sometimes warm

I don't know if I can love that anymore

'Cause I've got it all, got it all mistaken

For a meaningful life and a fun family vacation

Like when I used to ride rollercoasters with my dad

When a swimming pool in a hotel was a gift from God

Like love or like a family

I don't know how to be

Maybe I just want to get married

Or maybe I just want to fall asleep

But at l least I know that the world is spinning when we're tangled in the bedsheets

And at least I know that my mom is breathing when we talk on the phone

And at least I know that my house won't burn down, down to the ground

Or maybe it will

If I've been in love before, and I'm pretty sure I have

Then I'm pretty sure my house could burn down

Down to the ground tomorrow

If I've been in love before, and I know that I have

Then I know that my house could burn down

Down to the ground tomorrow