Can't change the past, man I know I got some regrets

I could have been there, maybe then there would be no texts

Cold soul, cold mattress, I was on the floor

So fucked that it felt fake, thought there was something more

Wish there was less, I know that I been here before

Same shit, different mess, man it's a different door

Shit felt like a test, I wish it was no more

Wish I'd let me havе a rest, I'd wish for nothing more

Tell mе why I feel it past December

My own damn bro, he just had to be the sender

The shit I couldn't say, I couldn't let 'em

Betrayals too many, I wish I'd never met 'em

Like where's your damn attention, you had the worst intention

Ain't got no comprehension, too tired of all this tension

And I still wish I did more than wish, that shit damn near tore a bitch

Wish I could tear my mind out, so I could burn that shit like escovitch

I locked in, man I was locking some out

I thought we locked in, that shit was full of my doubt

I carry this shit that no one knows shit about

I'm a broken record, same circles, still the old route (Uh)

Clashin' rhymes like they should've stayed in the drafts

I wouldn't find peace even dead on a raft

Fuck the damn future, bitch I'm stuck in the past

I wish this shit again that it was my god damn last

Last, last, last, last

I'm still tryna act like I don't remember

Thought that we was whole, think I lost me forever

Sat cold by the train, I'm talkin' late September

Head spinnin' in a storm, ain't got no damn umbrella

Bitch bright like June, but it's cold like November

Eyes wide, cool, but it's stormy weather

Unapologetic, could you feel much better

Couldn't even rest, could you do much better

That shit hurt like it gon' hurt forever

That shit hurt, feel like I'd do much better

That shit I wish had only been 'bout never

That shit I wish I'd only been 'bout never

Repeat like laundry, cuz I'm stuck like cycle

Strings attached, not talkin' 'bout no god damn Michael

Dark like winter, tell me where your sight go

Dark like skin, now tell me where the light go

Shoulda been a mistake, like the pasts a typo

Couldn't read that shit, but I can see their eyes know

I know you coulda stopped it, tell me where your sight go

I wake up it's still night, so where the fuck the lights go