[Part I]

[Verse 1]

I’d die to know just why the thing you desire the most

Only knows to send you smoke, ricocheting you back to square one

Desires know to grow while I still lie to my own pain

That never shows because the only way to cope’s to stay numb

The best impression I can ever make depends on

Whether I’m awake just enough to say I’m sane an I’ll stay calm

The rest of the work is testing my worth but there are

Never enough words to explain whether I’m depressed or just crave fun

And I’m a brave one to be away from my own cave

I’m trying to stay calm!

But I keep lying on my back, looking truthful

I’m drowning in this deep sweat patch and it’s not looking suitable

But somehow, the glow still looks so fucking beautiful

I got myself in this mess and

I cannot confess because I’m guilty to impress

This test is getting me at my best and I beg for less

I guess I’m blessed with distress to express

To the rest

[Part II]

[Verse 2]

I feel a lot of this but I’m fine with this

Concealing is a crime and I don’t know what time it is

Tell me how to make a line that fricking rhymes with this

And please treat me like a liar like I’m liking this

I’m releasing this fire like it’s nitrogen

There’s peace in the box but the oven is

About to blow its own sealed door again

Feel the fricking roar go while it’s pouring in

Blazing, it glows before it spreads

Lazy wars are known to flaw its meds

Next thing you know your own soldier’s dead

It's about as smart as eating mouldy bread!

[Part III]

[Verse 3]

Switching up the beat, just ignore the twitch

I live and still barely breathe, and it’s getting boring here

I feel like a leaf I've found a street to lie on the tree

Until I decease a year after feeling like I’m different

To the other greens that suddenly appear, and

Birds and bees are despising me, I'm revising, please, just leave him be

And let's just face it

I realise I'm no longer wanted upon this tree up here, and

Flip the gear, I try to steer, while I've lost my brakes

And plus I fear I'm

Getting near but I don’t see what it takes to just clear this guilty tear

Help me reason with myself, let's keep our secrets stealth

I'm repeatedly treated like I'm not meant to be myself

What about my growth painful journey of my terrible mental health?

Maybe some propane will energise me to get me ahead

And my fucking wealth never seemed to bother me

Until I find something I really need it for

Feeding wars peace feels impossible

So we carry on to keep on seeing more

A friendly stranger always said to me

To have a good day when he doesn't get to see

All this desperacy I'm blessed with, and it continues to be testing me

[Part IV]

[Verse 4]

How'd even get so cold in here?

Let me turn the heating up a little more and then

We can stay a little warmer but you're in here

I think it's getting colder because

You're a tourist that likes the fucking stories of my boring pic

You're a fucking liar, tell me why are you still you hatin'?

Ignite my damn fire but you had me fake him!

A piece of cake, drink a juice, and now it's getting physical

I want to get it through to you I'm getting lyrical

Way too tired unless I rested, so I lied again

Fezi died again and now he's suddenly back alive 'n' dead

Make less noise I'm not reviving him

You're the reason he wants to be pleasin' the algorithm

You guessed wrong if think you know

But Ignore me if you really don't want to listen

Is square one the place you want to be? No

You might as well leave me and I'll keep on pissing, you depend on your wishes

While I’m still standing on my feet, trying to be me

While you copy your friends and pretend to make scenes

I pretend to descend when I'm really getting leaked

Your fans think they killed me, I could see right through his screams clearly

I murdered beats, he completely deceased

He's dead now, bitch; There's nothing you can do about it