How long can I keep this up, man it's not on purpose

I know I still struggle with emotion, even my momma notice

Man she ain't never seen me nervous, only seen me working

Once I started smiling, stopped hurting

So far from perfect, I even got cracks at my surface

Far from worthless, determining what my worth is

Keep telling myself souls arent things to be purchased

Dodging the serpent, you know world be trying me too

You not alone shorty, girl I get anxiety too

This sound like red line back when I was like 17

At 22 man I done did things you ain't never seen

So now man I'm focused on a new flattery

Tryna get my mom a compound like thanks for having me

My dad at 23 was a couple years from a family

At 23 man I'm just tryna triple my salary

Getting to the point where my parents becoming human

And younger me look foolish. You gotta work it out, you can't just put it in the music

You a unc now. Gotta walk it out. Can't just talk the talk man you gotta prove it

Can't be having these girls out here looking stupid

Keep it 100 and let them know what the truth is

I mean you can't have them looking clueless. I mean to be quite honest , you should of knew this but

I guess you live and you learn

I guess you live and you learn

I felt that shit in my soul nigga

I guess you live and you learn

I fell in love with a girl I wasn't ready for

For so long I was thinking how selfish of me

I remember I couldn’t, I couldn’t grow alone

For so long I was thinking how helpless of me

For years I been tryna do it all myself

Starting growing when I realized it wasn't weak to be helped

Stressed out, losing weight. punch another hole in the belt

Only Lord knows how I found a way to keep my health

Only Lord knows how I found a way to keep myself

It's funny cause I hate drama

But was starting more problems than I was solving

I was hiding things beefing with my momma

Hurt some women. Tatiana’s, some Key’s, some Tatiana’s

Downing liquor like it’s water. Til it taste like water

Putting ‘gnac in the Tropicana. That don't mix

But then again neither do me and violence

But yet here I am down for sliding. With bro‘nem

And I know they known for riding. Patrol riding right pass us

Don’t pull us over it’s guns in this car nigga

I shoulda just stayed in glenwood. With my niggas

Why am I in the city involved with niggas

Why did I come back home. And play football with niggas?

Like I wasn't just with niggas who throw bullets?

Tun said don't reach for it if you won't pull it

Life coulda been different well instead we living well

Hey I man you live and you learn

I guess you live and you learn

I guess you live and you learn

I guess you live and you learn

I guess you live and you learn

Who you are do you know