[Verse 1: fatmowf]

It feels like it's been forever since I've seen your face

And even longer since you left your bed to leave your place

It's getting hard to hold a conversation because things have changed

I wish that you would talk to me and tell me that you need some space

And I can't tell if when I look at you, I'm seeing hate

Or if its fear, or if it's both, but honestly I couldn't blame

Cause after what we did, I know you can't see me the same

And I'd be lying if I said the way I see you has remained

But I miss you, and that's thе truth

And yeah I know it's fucked up that's my concern, but shit I rеally do

I miss the shit we did as kids, I miss when things were cool

I miss us laying in the green and staring at the blue

I miss our friends together, I miss spending time with you

It hurts to know there's nothing I can do, cause things are really through

And my intentions were the purest, that's completely true

But even so, I ruined everything trying to keep us, I was drunk

[Chorus]

I was drunk

I was drunken off of you

And I ain't even sip the booze

I was drunk, I was drunk

I was drunken off the love

That shit will make you kind of dumb

I was drunk, I was drunk

And I was drunken off the fear

Cause I don't know what I would do if you weren't here

I was drunk, I was drunk

I just wish I could rewind, but every choice I made was mine

I wish that I could lie and say that I was drunk

[Verse 2: fatmowf]

That day, I walked in your house the day of your recital

Cause at that point you played the violin a little while

Your sister signed you up for a duet, you're new to it

But she's been playing piano since a child

And she's such a perfectionist, it gets you kinda riled

Cause she's really passionate and your enjoyment's kinda mild

You approached her with a smile and said "Sis, I'm kinda nervous

Cause the song we're supposed to play, I'm not so confident I learned it"

She said "Well, it's too late, just suck it up, you'll do great"

"No, but I don't wanna do this", "Stop it, I don't care what you say!

We've been practicing so much, you can't just now desert it"

"But I wasn't having fun at all, my fingers kept on hurting

I was doing this for you, and now I don't think this is worth it"

Then things start escalating, I just stood there and observed it

Talking turned to yelling, there was tension in the air

And then eventually you threw your violin right down the stairs

And it broke

And that's when everything got worse

Yelling turned to screaming, tears were falling, I felt awkward

Names were being called, I heard a lot of swearing

And it's not about me, but to be honest, it was scary

I said "Hey, not to intrude, and you two know I'd never judge

But you should move away from the stairs", but the two of them won't budge

And then what happened next, I can't forget it like a grudge

Because as quickly as it started it all ended with a shove

Down the stairs, she fell down every step

My stomach sank, you called her name, she ain't respond, I can't forget

You put your ear up to her lips, I put my hand onto her chest

I didn't feel a beat, I looked at you, you didn't hear a breath

We waited five minutes, five minutes turned to ten

And her heart still wasn't beating when I checked her chest again

You put your face inside your hands, and asked yourself "What have I done?"

"I can fix this", I said, my brain started to run, I was drunk

[Chorus]

Drunk

[Verse 3: fatmowf]

Alright, here

Help me lift her up

Okay, now help me carry her out to the trunk

No, no, we're not gon' call no one for help

Man, are you dumb? This some shit we have to figure out ourselves

Okay, left foot, right foot, left again, walk

Stop worrying, just bring her down the hall

Just trust me, I'm going to fix this, just promise me you'll never tell anybody at all

Alright, she's in, can you go grab me a pen?

And grab a sheet of paper too

No, her diary from her bin

No, no, I know, I don't care if it's too far

I won't let them take you away and put you behind bars

You're a good person, you didn't mean to do that

And prisons for criminals, I don't want you to go through that

Just bring me her diary, I got this, I have a plan

Alright thank you, I knew you would understand

Alright, "Dear diary, and anybody who reads this

I'm sorry, I've had enough of this life and I'm gonna leave it

I've never felt good enough, the recital was way too much

I know this is unexpected, really, you never knew much

I was struggling and hopeless, I kept my feelings secret

And after all of this time I decided that I don't need this

So, if you need my body for the funeral and casket

You can find it at the bottom of the lake where we catch fish"

Alright, alright, that's it

We'll just leave this on her desk, and bring her to the lake and dip

And then if anybody asks, just say she left the house at six

And that you thought that she was going to the store to buy some chips

This is messed up

But they would take you away from me if we fessed up

Alright let's go, and get this over with before lunch

And empty the trunk, fuck, I should have never gotten drunk

But I'm drunk

[Chorus]

I was drunk

I was drunken off of you

And I ain't even sip the booze

I was drunk, I was drunk

I was drunken off the love

That shit will make you kind of dumb

I was drunk, I was drunk

And I was drunken off the fear

Cause I don't know what I would do if you weren't here

I was drunk, I was drunk

I just wish I could rewind, but every choice I made was mine

I wish that I could lie and say that I was drunk