[Intro: Various]

(Who's that? Oh, that's Ben)

(Oh my God)

(Seriously, I tell him that stuff all the time

He needs to just like...

What are you reading?)

(I'm not gay, but Mongolian throat-singing, man)

(Ooh, that's a look)

(That's an awfully hot coffee pot) (Haha)

[Verse 1: False Serenity]

2018, first day of 8th grade

Determined to have a good year right out the dang gate

Sounds easy enough, I'll just stick to the same lane

That I always have, but this year wasn't a play date

It was different from the rest, opposite to the others

That's when I lost Nathan; he was like my second brother

But now he's gone 'cause he said that I had changed

In a bad way. It's sad to say, but I'm really bothered by it

Still to this day. I feel guilt and feel pain

I feel I could've prevented it in a million ways

But I guess it don't matter 'cause I was really amazed

When he talked to me at Excels prom. Feelin's of strain

Entered my brain like rain, every which way in amazement

For the first time in three years, we were having a conversation

It felt good, but it hurt at the same time

He had guts; I'm just glad he don't hate mine

And to Abbey I may write, we were happy on date night

And though I didn't have feelings, when we happened to break ties

It still hurt, but I wish that I hadn't had taken my

Anger out so publicly. My bad, let me say my

Apologies. It was so bad that all day and night

Every bit of this music and this rappin' became my

Copin' mechanism when I was sad or enraged tight

But either way, I apologize for snappin' in daylight, 'cause-

[Chorus: False Serenity]

Closure is excepting that letting go

Is more important than thinking how you can change the past

I'm done with fighting this feeling, let's let it go

There's nothin' in our power we could've done to make it last

I'm done with looking, looking for happiness

In the same place that, same place I lost it

I'm done with looking, looking for happiness

In the same place that, same place I lost it

[Verse 2: False Serenity]

I want someone to confide in; I want a best friend

But I'm scared to give someone time and an investment

'cause I swear that they'll dip as soon as were swept in

To some overblown drama. I got too many questions

Like: maybe the problem might be my music?

I make too many personal songs expressing my two cents

And I feel like that drives people away. I'm foolish

But hey, some people stayed to this day. Are they stupid

Or is my music not the problem? I don't know

I feel like because of this, my exes, I lost them

I put out too much too quick and way too often

I should take it slower before I get lost in

Writin' rhymes instead of giving friends attention

But I lost Nathan and Abbey way before I did this

So it's not only that, but I keep hurtin' now

I just want to heal, stick with me as I work this out, 'cause-

[Chorus: False Serenity]

Closure is excepting that letting go

Is more important than thinking how you can change the past

I'm done with fighting this feeling, let's let it go

There's nothin' we could've done to make it last

I'm done with looking, looking for happiness

In the same place that, same place I lost it

I'm done with looking, looking for happiness

In the same place that, same place I lost it

[Verse 3: False Serenity]

I've lost too many friends to this stupid crap

How did it come to this? I didn't shoot for that

I just wanted to make everyone feel good and laugh

But when I lay vocals, I feel I should put them back

So more friends don't drop and leave

I've been pondering dropping the mic honestly

'cause this headspace ain't where I want to be

I know hearin' that is what some of y'all want from me

But put yourself in my shoes. Envision weeks

Where you get a little sleep because you're relentlessly

Pourin' your heart into an album, but the only outcome

Is your audience ripping it to bits and pieces

I'm only 16, but I'm trying my hardest

To write from the heart just making true songs

And to anybody who hates, you gon' be proved wrong

Anybody at all, I'll just have to move on 'cause

[Chorus: False Serenity]

Closure is excepting that letting go

Is more important than thinking how you can change the past

I'm done with fighting this feeling, let's let it go

There's nothin' in our power we could've done to make it last

I'm done with looking, looking for happiness

In the same place that, same place I lost it

I'm done looking, looking for happiness

In the same place that, same place I lost it