Im here again

I never thought

I ever needed anything

Appear for me

Cascade in light

I desolve my energy

And recognize

I need more

Than simple fucking symmetry

The enemy

Surrounding me

Its their face, and lacking imagery i -

Run

No more

I bare my teeth

Invoke the fear i feel-

Displayed

Bodies on display

Theyre crashing-

Wave

I feel

The sun dance, cross my skin

Across my face

Its real

And fantasy lives somewhеre in between

I learnеd to re-experience my dreams

And feeling lived in absence for too long

I got too good at causing pain

And damage layers up in cells

I can walk with all but shame

It resurfaced points of proof

Many more by end of night

Made a promise to the moon

Not the earth can bear such light

Painfully

Admitting this

Is somewhere that ive been before

Makes it

Easy

Admitting that its reaction

Erase me

Fall out

Blame me

Break down

So small

Choice words

Intent

So loud

Matted hair

Claws extend

Jaw unhinge

Its tearing flesh

Gnawing bone

Ribbon flesh

An angel release last breath

Its so far from a monster tho

Survival was everything

And killing something innocent

Is worth it if my heart will beat

Ill hold the gun

And stare at it

Then thank it for it feeding me

My words won't match my state of mind

The comfort was concealing me

So drawn to death but scared of life

While still at war with empathy

Thru broken words, and diary

Fight so hard to be kind to me

I feel ive lived in absence for too long

Got so scared of causing pain

Damage recreates a hell

Where everyone is shifting blame

And i walk with all but shame

Ill resurface points of proof

Its many more by end of night

And if every word was true

Not the earth can bear such light