[Verse]

Transition

To a different me

In a different place

With a different mental

Sayin' different things

When I treat myself

Everything but gentle

I had a couple songs

That I thought I liked

When I first made them

But the next morning

When I play it back

I fucking hate them

Gotta let go of my self-doubt and my self-hatred

I’m not an open book don’t read into me

Or flip my pages

But you flip me off when I don’t comply

Fuck the world, I’ll say it louder

Fuck the world and fuck the power

Fuck the norm, I made the album

Not normative, can’t quantify

When I put this shit on Spotify

When I put this shit on everything

I wanna hear every single fuckin' voice sing

Put the earbuds in, I'm flooding the brain

I’m self-taught, and I’m self-made

IvX, best remember the name

You’ll hear it again when I’m up on stage

I’m the one you hate, but you can’t escape

Your jealousy got you in a cage

Same one I was in in Journal

But I learned from that, I don’t want it back

Running faster than a running back

To escape my past, I’m done with that

I don’t want it back, I don’t want it back

I don’t want it back, I don’t want it back

Aight', listen

Lonely days in Pennsylvania

Had a racecar bed but I can’t sleep

Love my mom, like nothing else

All I had was her and all she had was me

Fast forward 'bout 15 years

I'm still lucky that I made it here

I'm so lucky that I'm still alive

I had bad thoughts that I pushed away

Hated myself in the 8th grade

So I changed myself in the 8th grade, back then

I was in a Christian school

But the money drug talk was still the same

Messed up my head, and only I'm to blame

But I’m better now than I ever was

Adversity made me stronger than I thought I could ever be

[Verse]

I'm haunted by the ghost of all my own regrets

I'm haunted by the things I never said and wish I would’ve said

I'm haunted by the things I said and never should have said

But nevertheless, I push on

Hoping to have a better future

Talking' bout' my pain is sad

But making songs is therapeutic

Wonder where I’d be, if I had never started making music

Prolly' in the same place with a negative mental state

I hardly leave my room, I tell my family that I like it there

I do good at my college

But honestly, I just might be scared

Of public places

Other faces hate but they love to stare

Watching my every move

Everything I do

Rooting for me to lose

Hoping for me to lose

That’s why I love my parents cause' they never left my side

And when I need someone to lean on

They’ve got shoulders down, and heads up

Ready to listen, whenever I start bitchin'

About the problems I face

The minor inconveniences feel like

More than a man can take

I'm burdened by my burdens and I

Wear it all on my face

Got baggy eyes that don’t disguise

The sleep that I lose when I think about who I am today

[Skit]

[SEARCH GROUP LEADER:]

Alright, everyone. It's one hell of a sandstorm out here, so since we can't see each other, we're gonna call out to make sure we're still in formation. Everybody got that?

[GROUP IN UNISON:]

Got it!

[LEADER:]

Everybody here?

[GROUP:]

Here!

[LEADER:]

[Everybody here?

[GROUP, QUIETER:]

Here!

{MC:]

He - no, no, nonono... Wait up! Wait up!

[LEADER, INAUDIBLE:]

Everybody here?

[MC:]

No... No... Shit!

*Sigh*

Why...? Why me? God, Why?! Why me?! Shit...

Why, am I always alone?

[???]

You're not

[Hook]

Lemme' get some of that stimulant

I’ve tried, but I can’t get rid of it

I’ll die 'fore I take yo' medicine

I’ll cry, I’m sad like I never been

Lemme' get some of that stimulant

I’ve tried, but I can’t get rid of it

I’ll die 'fore I take yo' medicine

I’ll cry, I’m sad like I never been

Lemme' get some of that stimulant

I’ve tried, but I can’t get rid of it

I’ll die 'fore I take yo' medicine

I’ll cry, I’m sad like I never been

Lemme' get some of that stimulant

I’ve tried, but I can’t get rid of it

I’ll die 'fore I take yo' medicine

I’ll cry, I’m sad like I never been

[Verse]

Movin' at high speeds

Wonder why nobody like me

Man I been killin' it high key

Think I’m the best and I might be

Reality check

I been making music

But in actuality gotten no checks

I ain’t done enough yet

So no, I can’t brag on my wealth

But I don’t really need to, I don’t really -

Independent mothafucka' tryna build a dream

Tryna be a lantern but I’m livin' in the shadows

Rippin' into instrumentals made without a team

Leaving all my competition hanging in the gallows

I don’t wanna say it again

But everybody knows I did it all on my own

And all from home

School and music like a tightrope

And I might fall from 50 stories

Every tape is another story

But these three here are all connected

You heard right man this the trilogy

Don’t get yo' brain affected

Gather round kids, listen close

Don’t let this go neglected

Type-a shit like blink and you’ll miss it

But a miss one thing my brain rejected

Next tape is the big finale

Such a gift - Buon Natalie

Comin' fast like a motor rally

3 for 3 that’s the only tally

So lemme' just close with this

I know the next couple months might bore ya'

But when the wait is over

Man the wait is worth it

Just wait for Euphoria