I hate what I have become

I miss the way things used to be

Before there was an ounce of hate that was inside of me

Before I knew what was in store, i was too blind to see that I found the silver lining

But I guess I wrapped it around my fucking throat

There is no turning back from here

I'm alone with no place left to go

Not a place I can go

It's taking over my mind

It's taking over my life

I spend my days trying to escape this hole that I've made for myself

Let me rot in this hell

I've become something I truly hate

Rid me of my place and forget my fucking name

This is what I never wanted to be

And the weight of regret will never set me free

I am facing the consequence

I'll hate myself till I'm dead

This is something I can't win

And I can't wait for this to end

I can't even count how many times the thought of ending my life has crossed my mind

Because I'm dead in your eyes

I've dug my grave with every mistake that I've ever made

Now this weight on my chest, it will never go away

This is only the beginning of my suffering

And it won't stop until I'm in the dirt that's under me

(voice 1)

You have no idea what it's like to wake up every day and want to tear out your fucking eyes every time you look at yourself in the mirror

Please just let this stop. I know what I've done. I'm begging for this to stop. I can't take it anymore

Get out

(Voice 2)

You worthless, empty shell. How do you live with yourself? Your life amounts to nothing. And there is nobody left for you here

Get out