Constricted

I try to fight it but the walls, they keep on closing in

Afflicted

Cursed with a mind that's bound to face a fatal slip

There's nowhere safe, I've lost my way and now I'm too far gone

I can't escape the memories of where it all went wrong

Can't stand to live another day inside the skin that I'm in

Destined for discomfort

How do I cut this out

Thoughts racing in an unrelenting spiral

Don't know what happens when my mind goes black

Cognitive dissonance, I can't discern what I know

Forever longing to dissolve my past

I need rewired cause my mind is short-circuiting

I'm tangled up inside existential suffering

If I could, I'd carve it out with a lobotomy

The four-letter disorder that's buried underneath

Just drive a knife through my skull

So then I would let go

Lights on but nobody's home

It sounds so wonderful

Violence

Takes a hold inside of my mind

Here we go again

Counting down the steps until I'm over the edge

Only seconds left

Give me eternal rest

Uh!

Give me eternal rest

I need out of this hell inside my head

Oh!

Let me out

Flashbacks start again

How can I forget

Fucked inside the head

I am longing for this to end

Just drive a knife through my skull

So then I would let go

Lights on but nobody's home

It sounds so wonderful

The fear persists

And I relive the torment

Gouge out my eyes

So I don't see it again

Lobotomize me

Lobotomize me

Panic starts again

Fuck!

My body writhes in the tremors

I wish that I couldn't remember

Gouge out my eyes

Carve out the light

Maybe then I would find my peace of mind