Guilt - Intellectual

I thought everything would be just fine

That we would make amends and we would be alright

But I never got to say goodbye. I swear I'm losing my mind

The more that time passes me by

I've been living in a world crawling on my knees

Fucking losing sleep. (Grinding my fucking teeth)

My innocence is tearing at the seams

Why can't I escape this guilt that's haunting me?

It's strangling me

But you'll never under stand that guilt will never set me free

I'm a liar and a coward and my gut still turns within each passing hour

Why can't I just close my eyes?

And say goodbye to this life of mine

The weight of regret is fucking dragging me down

Sinking deeper and deeper, forcing me to drown

In a sea that has nothing left for me but a series of bad memories

Nothing but a frayed sanity

Why can't I just close my eyes?

And say goodbye to this life of mine

Because I'm losing my fucking mind

I would do anything to put my thoughts at ease

And rid myself of the man I said I would never be

I'm a fuck up

I'm a coward and I'm so fucking sorry

I would do anything if I could just rest in peace