I think i stuffed up

I put the drugs in my stomach and now i am fucked up

Yeah i really did this time

Didn't i, wasn't in my mind

This is not what you should go and do

When you think that you are through

Now im at my lowest point

I cannot even smoke a joint

But im

Okay

With that

Shit

For a few months

Ive been trying to quit

Thought i

Finally

Had a

Grip

Of my life

But shit now its starting to slip yuh

From my fingertips

Wish i never had those trips

Now im paying the price

Looking back now

Why didn't i stop to think twice

Even if it was for a little while

Then i could sit back and fucking smile

Now my whole my lifes fucked up

Broken stomach lost my job and my mentality is in a pit

Im sick of this shit

Now im unfit, even though i quit

Went for a skate yesterday with my friends

Had no breath heart attack felt like i was at my end

Oh shit here we go again

My anxiety is playing up i can't pretend

That im okay cause im really going round the bend

And i am struggling to find a way to help i need to mend

Myself

Cause my health

Is broken and i can't tell

If im well

Need some help

Think i am going to hell