Everybody asking when its my time

My time to get back on the grind

When it is my time to shine

I tell em i dont know

I dont really know

When ill be back on my feet

When ill get back up

And kick it in the street

With my brothers

With my homies

Man im feeling kinda lonely

All the way up here

Im living on my own

With nothing but fear

Feeling kinda crap

Needa nap

Theres no time for that

Im chilling with the laptop in my lap

Tryna write a rap

But somehow (what)

I can't do that

I just sit alone (yep)

Waiting on my snap

Won't you talk to me (nope)

Want some company

Another day at home (hmm)

I guess with nobody (uh huh)

This is not

What i wanted at all

Living out of home

I was havin a ball

Now i dont even gеt calls

Or go out to the mall

My life is kinda sad

But i guess i should bе glad

I dont

Know what to do now

I guess i should be proud

That ive made it

This far

Even tho my efforts sub par

Im waiting

For the day

That i can say i am okay

I know that i have made mistakes

But im gonna pull through today

I know that i have stuffed up

And ive made some mistakes

But i can tell you right now

That for months i haven't felt great

Its slowly creepin up behind me

Man its almost a year

Since i had some of those gold tops

That filled my body with fear

Oh shit oh dear

I think im bugging out

Not from the drugs

Im freaking now

My heart is pumping

Jumping out

Of my chest

I can't chill now

This isnt how

I want to be

To live my life

And afraid to see

The dark side of

Reality

Living my life

On the edge of my seat

Its not ideal

For me to live this way

I can't even sleep

Through a single day

Thats why

I can't let go of the past

Hold onto it with a grasp

When everthing was better

And thats all i can say