anger - Intellectual

[Verse]

I learned that there’s a bitter part of me that wants you to lose

I’m incompetent I know that’s the truth

I gave up everything to watch myself fall

But I really really really wanted you to take it all

But now I don’t know myself anymore

I blew up my life and now I am reborn

But if my blood still boils

And my mind still feels spoiled

Tell me why do I still feel this anger?

Why do I still have this pain?

Thought if I could connect with a savior

Thought that maybe I won’t feel again

Thought that maybe I’d find me some freedom

Maybe I’d make myself sane

But I’m feeling that sooner or later

I’ll point the trigger

Right straight to my face

And I’ll hope I fly out of this place

Nowadays I fight with jealousy but I shut the fuck up

I keep punching holes in my wall from the drugs

In the office all day and I study all night

Had to fuck up my passion just to stay alive