Just pretend

Wake up to the phone

It’s blowing up they wanna know

If I’m fine, need time, offline

In a hurry gotta go

She says come back to bed and stay

I wanna but I’m running late (again)

Deadlines, headlines, showtime

Need more hours in the day

I lost my mind again

Constantly stressing over what’s to come

And I can’t help but wondering

What’s pulling me back, I’m losing track

Doctors appointment at 10

I’m sick of feeling dead

Locked inside my head

Every time I’m here alone

If I remain the same

I’ll drive myself insane

Fearing I’ll fail in the end

But I’d rather be erased than just pretend

Everybody thinks I’m ghost

Ain’t even had the time to post (for days)

Missed texts, distressed, no rest

Always gotta do the most

So don’t take it personal

I’m not ignoring you

I just need time to re-align

Before my head explodes

I’m sick of feeling dead

Locked inside my head

Every time I’m here alone

If I remain the same

I’ll drive myself insane

Fearing I’ll fail in the end

But I’d rather be erased than just pretend

With every choice there’s a risk

Everybody’s telling me “maybe you should see a therapist”

So let me clue you in a bit

This is my life, no filter, you should just deal with it

Deal with it

I’m sick of feeling dead

Locked inside my head

Every time I feel alone

If I remain the same

I’ll drive myself insane

Fearing I’ll fail in the end

But I’d rather be erased than just pretend

(Pretend) (Pretend)

If I remain the same

I’ll drive myself insane

Fearing I’ll fail in the end

But I’d rather be erased than just pretend

I’d rather be erased than just pretend