Hard for me to maintain

Thoughts inside my fucking brain

Every single fucking day

Everything thing the fucking same

Difference is a quick shot

Glock loaded turn into the villain

With no crip walk

Calling on my phone you should get lost

Non stop yelling from the old man

Bitch walk

Back into my head with these shit thoughts

Shit talk

Down upon myself it’s the self taught

Action that I’ve learned since a rugrat

Fuck a fucking face tat

Sad until my pulse flat

Dad is gone now where he at

Bitch gon leave me to myself

Cut my outside let me inside

Let in now let me war cry

I just my fucking shoes tied

Tripping over laces next

Aglit is my fucking neck

My girl won’t cry if I just died

Take a ride best take my life

Grip the knife just let me try

To kill myself just please just once

Tried before but I did fail

And momma told me life is frail

Im a wreckless sack of shit

Get a fucking sack of shit?

I forgot where dealer lives

Dust and chains inside my ribs

Break apart my nervous nerve

I just hate my life for sure

Years I wore that fucking shirt

The blood still on it fuck my worth

I want to waste inside my hatred

Fuck a lover time was wasted

Fuck a family time was wasted

Fuck this the world the power wasted

We all humans segregated

Feel alive? So special ain’t it

Getting kicks off special treatment

Sanity? You cool demons?

Egg and semen

Mistake universally

Certainly I’m more than just a sack of flesh controlled by insecurity

Not worthy please just spend your without me please I hate the fucking life I live so purge it out

No surface now I’m stuck inside the fucking clouds

And you bitch yeah you shot me down

I look just like a clown with disappointment on my face

Disrespect can get you killed? I’m disrespecting everything

Cause I’m not scared of wedding rings with death this is our loving way

Tears run off the cheeks now this is just another early grave

Early bird gon get the worm so I wake up in later day

Later fade my mental to the corner of my skull okay

Do you understand a single concept of reality

It’s sad to see that y’all don’t even know yourselves

Unaware of the cards I was dealt, have an impact? Fuck myself

Have a run back trace the lines

Gave a fuck now give it back

You’re a bitch I say to self

In everything I fucking lack