Look, I ain't gonna lie bout my situation

I ain't here to be breaking apart your reputation

But I'm confused what you asking me

Sittin' I'm trippin and thinking about what the past could be

How you say you love me just to tear me apart

Say that you want me around and leave me inside the dark

You probably think that I'm pathetic and speak down on my name

I've been sending you flowers thinking reality changed

But you ignoring every call and you don't look what I post

And I've been looking for your name in my story but you coast

I've been drowning just to speak or I've been doing the most

But I feel broken because your steping out all over my hopes

I think you got it twisted, I don't want you back

I hope you reminiscing flip when you think bout that

You've been spittin on our grave, on some fuck you shit

Now I'm numb to my world and I can't feel shit

So what the fuck do you want, could you be honest with me

I'm feeling dumb as fuck like, what the problem could be

And now I hate sleeping cause I see yo face

And I don't want to dream now, I just wanna escape

I never hurted you just to hurt you, who do you think that I am?

I'm just growing as a person learning to be a man

You got me petty and praying this is all fictional

I don't hate who I am but hate myself for missing you

And all these pretty little fears stuck inside my brain

Like you carved them with a knife just to sign your name

And how I wanna react but this pain won't fade

And I don't wanna react and all this pain won't fade FUCK

And I don't wanna react, I don't want to react (Oh, no)

And I don't wanna react (No, oh) This pain won't fade away

This pain won't fade away, and this pain won't fade away (Oooh)

I let you go, you disappear because you needed your space

You said you need me in your life, and do not lie to my face

I got my shit together, I know you running in place

And I did everything to fix it, How the fuck does it taste?

Yes I say I miss you but you treated me wrong

I put my heart out on a page, gave it to you in a song

And I've been asking God to make the memories fade

I'm praying daily that I don't have to remember your face

Wish I could hurt you like you hurt me, but I wouldn't go through it

And I won't let another close, cause I'm afraid I'ma lose it

I hope it's hard for you to sleep but I won't be that man

I just try to do my best til' my sufferin ends

Left me without a reason, Don't come back with excuses

Don't you ever call me phone, swear you think that I'm stupid

You gave me so much to remember that I cannot pretend

I didn't just lose my girl I lost my closest friend

But you manipulated me, and how it gets that bad

How I feel I lost something, that I never did have

And judging me for my mental health, that's honestly strange

Cause true love will find a way to really understand pain

And honestly, I hope you good and can find your way

Just leave me out the picture so I find my pace

Just upset I let this affect my health

I'm not mad I lost you I'm mad I lost myself

I guess your true colors show when you exposing yourself

I'll be like every other man that you set on a shelf

But that's between you and god so I will pray you forgiven

I wanna smile because it happened, but I wish that it didn't

(Didn't Didn't Didn't)

And I don't wanna react, I don't want to react (Oh, no)

And I don't wanna react (No, oh) This pain won't fade away

This pain won't fade away, and this pain won't fade away (Oooh)

It's not right, I wanna hate you so bad, just, just leave me alone