[Verse 1]

I wasn't trying to be difficult

When I collapsed on the floor and couldn't get up

I don't know if I can bear this cup

I don't know how long I can keep sweating blood

I'm getting tired

Of being old for my age

The light burns like a fire

When I'm up on this stage

[Verse 2]

Why do so many girls seem to asking

If I'm willing to commit suicide for my family?

As if it's not love if I can't pay the price

As if I'm not like Christ if I don't hate my life

What if I'm real?

What if it's not a pull?

What if I'm not a steal?

What if I'm hatable?

[Verse 3]

How could I dare to write a poem

If I can't pay the mortgage on my home?

How could I care about my soul

If I'm not filling the masculine role?

Honey, making art?

Honey, how could you sleep?

You're behaving like a child

With children to feed

[Verse 4]

Why is no onе impressed

Until I turn around with my paycheck?

Until I pay my bills and can afford

To not need anyonе else anymore

Do you even care

If I die inside

Or do you just want

A responsible family man's respectable life?

#BRIDGE

I always wanted to be like Christ

But I can't live my life on the firing line

I always wanted a family to feed

But I'm not gonna burn my poetry

I always wanted a wife to adore

But I won't die up on this white horse

I won't give up the ghost

I won't abort my unborn soul

I won't give up the ghost

I won't abort my unborn soul

I won't give up the ghost

I won't abort my unborn soul

I won't give up the ghost

I won't abort my unborn soul