(Intro)

TXAX Beats (Beat Mark)

(Verse)

I wanna speak on something called mental illness

And to do that I'll use a beat with a lot of chillness

Every sufferer is compelled to this reality

And it's high time we changed our mentality

As a community we treat it with a sense of abnormality

But it should be considered normal in actuality

It's high time we stopped treating sufferers with such brutality

And started offering a bit of hospitality

You could have it all, a house, kids, a wife

Doesn't matter you'll still loose your apetite for life

Can't shake it, the feeling that you're in strife

The thoughts in your head that somethings wrong are rife

In reality, I go through this as well

So I can atest to the fact that you feel like you're in hell

I can relate to those who wanna end it all and sell their

Loved ones out, but they're right when they tell you

That it's alright, people do care

Losing you would make their life so bare

They'd be nothing without you so don't you dare leave them

Please keep your head out of that snare

Seen too many good ones go, many a status

And those cynics will ask why this matters

Their loved ones, their heart and mind it shatters

They're never the same, their lives are tatters

It's hard, in life I feel like I've failed

When it comes to things I've done I've trailed behind

Where I should be, I got bailed out

By my parents, their plans for me got impailed

I hear you ask, am I ashamed?

Nah, I'm actually more so afraid

Gonna be 21 soon, still don't know what to do

Even if I did, don't know if I'd be successful and get through

It will be 4 years since leaving school soon, since then havn't done a lot

Did a course 2 years ago but since then I've become lost

Mentally, I'm in no different place to way back then

Wanna get out of this headspace but don't know when

That, will happen, I've been pretty afraid

Hard to think I could have had it made

If i'd stayed focused and worked hard

I had it all mapped out on a placard

For years to hide this I put on a facade

Was afraid the real me wouldn't get held in high regard

It feels like I've lied, been two different people

When it comes to dealing with this, that combination has been lethal