I wish that I’d known better than to let myself believe

That the person that I was before wasn’t still me

I’ve been a stranger in a costume of somebody at peace

Living my whole life like I’m a kid on Halloween

I thought that I was miserable because of the drink

Then I let myself be miserable with full clarity

And realized that I was miserable because of me

Told myself that I was doing good

That I was finally living like evеrybody should

Maybe I’m better off admitting that it all was prеtend

Like the way that I quit drinking just to start again

I know it seems like I’m not trying, I swear that I am

I wanna wake up and feel alright

Tired of paying in the morning for the things I did last night

It’s so hard now that I get to set all of the rules for me

When nobody’s gonna save me from my own worst enemy

When the only thing that I’ve ever been fighting was myself

Spent so much time thinking it was everybody else’s

Responsibility to be my referee

Pushing everyone away so I’d be right when they’d leave

Throwing punches at the mirror trying to prove something

A martyr nobody asked for, there’s no bravery in killing who I was before