I look at you, you look through me

Am I invisible?

A ghost at your party

A joke I don't get

Isn't the punchline obvious?

And it's funny how it ends

A million times in my mind just to start again

Want so badly to forgive

I wanna let you in

How many times can you break my heart?

Fill in the cracks with gold 'till it all falls apart

Is there beauty in the pain?

In the fractures that remain?

So you got the best of me

Like I knew that you would

'cause I'd do anything that you asked

It's no selfless act

You know I love a reason to lose out on sleep

And it's funny we pretend

That there's something to learn in any of this

Want so badly to believе

That it hurts for a reason but I'll never see

How many timеs can you tear me apart

Before I grow a spine or collapse in your arms?

How many more first starts?

Tell me how many times

Tell me how many times

Tell me how many times are you gonna break my heart?