[Verse]

Man tell me what am I living for?

Tell me what it means, means to die

Do my purpose and my dreams collide

Or will I be unsatisfied with myself when I leave this life?

It's only Chapter 20 tryna keep dreams alive

I'm on the fence and homie I could fall on either side

Careless 'cause I can't tell which Is the greener Side

The phenes' alive I mean it when I read my rhymes

You listen and that's the only time I let you read my mind

The reason why I'm so straightforward is because life's a bitch

And she don't care about your penis size

Man she'll ride you til' you break down with nothing to lose

Tell you that you ain't shit then start fucking your crew

She watching your moves

And that's all cool until you pull up at your cousin house

And see that bitch is fucking him too

Man, this is for the homies stuck In the loop

On the way to work before the sun rising

Like its something to do

Need you to prosper

Need you to understand there's a lot more

To life than just working and making it through the week

But shit I know the struggle I know it's uncool to be

Chasing your dream while your fam is relying on you to eat

Wishing they knew the feeling you get when you chew a beat

Man, sometimes I feel like the music's pursuing me

It's true indeed

And I would never say I've changed

But it's hard for old friends to understand the newer me

And you probably wouldn't understand my life

And sometimes man I can't stand my life

Homie, am I right?

As a man I write

The vivid Images in the mind of a Islander

Born In 97' these are the thoughts that I've piled up

Ever since a youngin' when I was wilder

Back of the class acting irrational

Having to hold me back in after school

Hot temper wish it was milder

Can't recall how many times mama was dialed up

And that was 'til I got older and got my style up

Had a bit of knowledge

Street smart slash book smart

I probably shoulda went and applied for college

But how many people we pay homage to got their honours?

So tell me what it means, means to die

And if my purpose and my dreams collide

Then will I finally be satisfied with living a life

Lavished, putting five karats in my babygirl ear

Like Big before he died

Or will I be pressured by all the lies

Will I be traumatized if I leave my boys behind

And they calling my phone

Knowing I can't get back to them cause the touring life

Is something I've been working for All my life

And if I'm a baller like every rapper I wanna be like

Then will I be more than right

To be thanking gormer Life

Will I be haunted if I had looked in my daughter eyes

And I saw that five karats is something she saw was normal like

I'll be sitting there like she ain't know that's not normal Life

Thinking I fucked up if she ever saw all the fights

Me and her mama about to have over all them nights

I pray she understand that God's power is more than life

So why do I want it?

Is it because I was Demoralized?

Seeing these other kids getting things that I wanted like

Couldn't afford the life that I wanted but i'll get it for sure

Always knew that I'd be rich I just never knew what for

And while I whip this Honda Accord

I see you laughing at my dreams

Cause you ain't happy with yours

I'm tryna get up on the cover of Forbes

That's why from now I'm cutting all ties

With people who ain't act in support

So tell me what it means to die?

Do my purpose and my dreams collide?

Or will I fail at my aspirations of where I wanna be

Hitting targets

I'm nearly at four minutes feeling like im only getting started

Team strong who overlapping us

Probably nobody with the music we stacking up

It's only chapter 20

You rappers ain't catching up

And I spit the realest shit to wrap it up

And that's what's up, motherfucker