[Verse 1]

Not really myself or haven't been for a while

In the front of my house smoking a black and mild

I swear the other day I almost ended it all

Like 45 minutes after we ended that call

You told me that I was dealing with it better than you

I was dying but I was just happy to know it was you

My friends say it's like suicide

That I really can't get over you and I

And life was so much different in my head about six years ago

Maybe I'm just tripping, crying out, but you don't hear me though

Got so many issues on my mind that cause these tears to flow

You disappear and go, that's what cause my fears to grow

I wonder who would really miss me, like genuinely miss me

Do I matter at all? Does anyone want to see me get to sixty?

Ha, sorry for the transparency, I can only be real

I bleed like you, I think like you

I definitely feel, I'm just human

In my room thinking about life

I think about more the wrongs I've done, more than I think about rights

I think about more the lows I've seen, more than I think about highs

I think I deserve to be happy, cause I'm a genuine person that tries

I know when it's crazy, all of my friends is having their babies

I feel like life is passing me by, feel like I'm going straight crazy

It's deeper than what you know stop going off the surface

Hoping that you'll be here right next to me when they close the curtains

[Interlude]

[Verse 2]

Really surprised that I'm alive

Remembering conversations I had with God

As I sat and listened he told me what's mine is mine

I'm learning to be patient and shut up from time to time

I got some questions, so I'mma call her

Mr. Clam what's up with your daughter?

Sorry to bother, but I know that she listens to her father

Maybe you can talk to her, cause I feel like the sewer

Thinking that if I should pursue her, further

Further more, hoes text me when they not sober

Asking if they can come over

Asking me if I'm a smoker

Light a L, blow it, roll it, smoke another, that ain't me

I'm just trying rid the pain

Told her I ain't trying to be, I just need

My baby, my lady

I need some time to think

I'm growing up so fast, things get different when I blink

I know it's just a phase but right now I can't seem to breathe

Thinking that love ain't no emotion, it's a real disease

I know, we rush back and don't know exactly what life is

But I'm here and I'll have your back through any one of your crisis

Don't never stress, ever worry

Your feelings to me is priceless

Please say something, please say something

I'm sick and tired of your silence

While I'm sitting inside of my car

Four in the morning, looking at the stars

I think about you when I think of the stars

But more of how you feeling and how you are

Look, it's deeper than what you know, stop going off the surface

Hoping that you'll be here right next to me when they close the curtains