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[VERSE 1]
Man I had this fan back in the old days
A weird chick but bad in her own way
She hit me everyday I just thought she was lonely
She hit me up so much you'd thought I was her only friend in the world
She had issues her Dad or something beat up on her Mom and misused her
Now she's up the duff and the cycles continues
Cause the dude that she's with is a big douche
Didn't know what to say
I hit her with that everything is gonna be okay
I hit her with tomorrow's gonna be a brighter day
I hid the fact I didn't probably actually relate
But I think there's always gotta be another way
She said if I reverse the ticking and tocking
My history'd decurse I'd stick in Hip Hop in
I'd show em I'd be versed in gettin em talking
The hottest shit we've heard from a chick in Wisconsin
I think that's tip top
But when that baby pop you gon flip flop
Baby gon change baby baby you just watch
And all that crazy talk gon drop in the zip lock
I'll talk to you soon
I'll talk to you soon
[VERSE 2]
For a while there I thought she had dropped off
I was chillin when my guard it got caught off
I checked my inbox she had written me all month
I hate it when the Gram does that but I hopped on
So her man stepped out and got off, damn
Wasn't there for the umbilical pop off, damn
Rocked her mouth raw with a south paw, damn
Now he's crying on his Ham in the chow hall
I got her back later
I wanted to give her time
She said she don't know why
She just stay high
The days go by
My life's a lie
My life ain't mine
At nights I cry
I'd like to die
I told her shit man you got some thinking to do
Before you check out on a child who ain't bigger than two
Who every second of the day she be thinking of you
Stop starring at your issues you got some blinking to do
I'll talk to you soon, damn
I'll talk to you soon
My girl and I driving home I get a message
Her new shit she fucked around got arrested
Said she's off drugs still can't find no blessings
I can't support Alessa I make a mess of blah blah blah I can't
I put the phone down damn babe this bitch is crazy
She asked who and I told her about her thinking maybe
I get some help on what to say or just let it go
She said what's going through her head you'll never know
I wrote her back
Told her she gon do the time
Pray to God
Ask for answers
Everything is fine
They've got programs they gon help you get your life straight
They gon help you get your life... and before I could ever write some more
She said she never had a daughter that shit was made up
That she's not even a she
She's some dude who played up
She played three other rappers all of em paid up
Using the money for rent and habits her morals all grayed up
Guess she thought I was a sleeper guess I always stayed up
Guess when nothing happened he felt like he needed to open up
Cause we shared the same bonds of growing up
What's lies what's truth
I was going nuts that hit me right in the guts all but throwin up
Catfish dead this dude's sick in the head
His soul is sick and twisted but I couldn't leave him for dead
That's not what I believe in no way
I heard the verdict and the sentence's six months he'll go away
That's when I made the change don't take it personal
Trust betrayed is irreversible
Still person to person but I speak through the music
If you need me get the record and use it
If you listen to my words never lose it
Don't take my kindness for granted don't abuse it
I got love for everybody non exclusive
Your heart will always be where the truth hits
I'll talk to you soon
I know you feel so low like you can't get up
I know you're so full of it and you're so fed up
You've been feeling like the water in a trash can
Thinking that if life was in front of you you'd get the back hand huh
Dude I know that you're drunk and you're all alone
Workin to the bone hop in your truck come back to an empty home
We all fall and make mistakes
Sometime's it's hard moving to fast to put on the breaks
You slid right into a different lane what are the stakes
You bit off more than you can chew now your stomach it aches
It's okay
It's okay
Out with your boys tryna drink that pain
Regrets and mistakes make you act that way
Used to count all your blessings now it's nothing but cake
And focus on the wrong things until you look at your plate
You see it's full of all your regrets and stupid mistakes
And I don't even know if anybody told you today
It's okay it's okay
Knocked up a girl who done left you
Cheated behind your back went and slept too
Many times around to get another chance
Nothing but the same old song and dance
You feel worthless
Like you ain't nothing but trash
Parade around like the Doc put your heart in a cast
Try to drown all the pain with some drink and noise
And find a temporary liver just to fill in the void
You got reckless
You put your heart in the hands of another who ain't got the same vision or plan
You feel breathless
And you got nothing to say and I don't even know if anybody told you today it's okay
All we really need is some comfort
Sick of screaming up at God till your lungs hurt
Feel wrong in your skin like a sun burn
Mad at yourself cause you really did love her
You point the blame away while everything around feels like it's taken away your child
You struggle with believing in God
You think if he was real how come you feel like a fraud
But for the first time you got on your knees to pray
You're down begging that the Man will take your pain away
That 9 Mill in your right hand starts to raise
You pulled the trigger but the bullet got stuck in the chamber it's okay