should have - Intellectual

[Intro: Sufjan Stevens and Producer Tag]

Oh, be my rest, be my fantasy

døves, døves, døves

[Verse 1: Wicca Phase Springs Eternal]

Tie it up, would that be wrong?

Must be the heat that makes my throat hurt in the mornin'

I've been wakin' up hot in my own bed

And you always turn your back, but I don't even want to talk about it

Like it's your new way to attack

Show you I have it, I pay everything in cash

You tie me up, so I'll react

I've been callin' out to you, but I'm gettin' no response and I'm like...

If there's a crisis, it'll be the last one

And if I die I hope it's in front of a mirror

I've got a girl, but it's super so platonic

I've got a friend, but it's really not convincing

He calls me up and I will say that you were not that down

Bodies on the ground, lights really out

Bodies on the ground

[Interlude: Sufjan Stevens]

Explaining what I feel, that empty feeling

[Verse 2: døves]

I was in the trees then, livin' in the background

Couldn't even see then, yeah, I had the blade out

Diggin' into my skin, searchin' for an answer

I think I wanted your love, I'm takin' my chances

Like do I want to die today or run away?

Excuses that I made sound the same, like I said, "I'm sorry"

Don't want me to leave, but I think it's too late

You don't want me to leave

And GothBoiClique in the club in the back

With the drugs in a bag and my heart in my hands, so black

I've been buyin' bottles all night, I'm so blacked

Benzo in my blood, like I think I need that

And yeah, I wanna die, but I don't want to forget you

So, tell me what it's like when I miss you

And tell me what it's like to be missed too

I still wanna die, but I don't want to forget you

[Outro: døves]

And I still wanna die

I still wanna die

But, I don't wanna forget you

I don't wanna forget you

I still need you in my life

And I still wanna die

I still wanna die

But, I don't wanna forget you

I don't wanna forget you

I still need you in my life