They say I'm a grown man now

Say I'm a grown man who should know the direction

Of my future

At least a little bit

And not a little kid (no more)

Sweatin' in my eyes, long socks and I'm old at the park

People and they friends rolling up the board, asking me for a spark

(I'm sorry, I don't got, I don't have a light)

I been out of options in ark

In a dream that I never had

(Open my eyes, lost in it)

And I woke up with some cold blood

On my hands, I've been overnight no love

There my chest, fill a hole, there's a cold clutch

Just me, just me, and no soap

Red Eagle champagne with the top down

With my friends, feeling down but all smiles

Mood swing, mood swing, I swing my-

(Swing my head down)

So I stay focused, this I gotta pray now

Gotta get moving but I'd rather lay down

I said so much, what to say now?

Taking over LA but I might hit the Greyhound

I can't think

It's my fault if I sink

Don't grab my hand, please don't

I'd rather fall alone

I'd rather

Yeah, back for the real me

Now I been getting smarter, feeling down more and more

Making no sense

More I learn more I notice how I know shit

Older with a plan, getting nowhere

Either way, depressed

Whatever way I'm moving I'm still not a man yet

And I got a good death

[?] I'm a failure, just a poor man, I'm fucking up

And I hope this dump in a deeper pit

Can't sleep this up, can't run away

I got friends to save, with fucked up mental health

And I'm by myself, and I'm okay I think

It's alI been on my iPhone, walking with my eyes low

I don't even smoke man, I don't even drink either

That don't even mean shit no more

I been on my iPhone, doing nothing and I'm praying that

One day I'mma get, get, get better

Fame is all you need, probably soft, get cheddar

Yeah, god-level, god-level voice

I'm a god, and I got a god-level texture

Burnin' my boats, lost in a ocean

(Trying to escape)

Wait, but I swim, out of my couch, out of my car, out of my room

They kick us when we're down

Sayin' you're grown, don't cry

Kick you when you're down

Regret that you're alive, ooh-oh

Refuse, uh, to give up, but

I refuse, yeah uh, know what I'm sayin' now

(We refuse to give up, give up)

Ay, time to get out of my way

Out of my head, going crazy

It's time to get out of my way

(We refuse to give up, give up)

Time to get out of my building

Get myself fucked off my face

[?] water my gardens

I'm stuntin' all of you hoes

(We refuse to give up, give up)

I might just dance on the ceiling

Leave all my chains that I'm feeling

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[?]

(We refuse to give up, give up)

I been on the dms

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Locked inside my room

Just leave me alone