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I remember a broken heart, it provoked the art of sorrow

Stuck in the future, a destiny still hoping for tomorrow

I was changed by certain incidents that left me broken hearted

But what goes around comes around and I'm back where I started

Forced to pick up the pieces and shatter fragments of the struggle

The only thing this kid saw was a jigsaw puzzle

A drop in a puddle, lost in a moving stream

Stuck running in place, chasing the ever elusive dream

The truth it seems to escape through my fingers like sand granules

They wrote a book about this once but I lost the damn manual

And sanity is tangible, I know because I've touched it

I've been abducted by its clutches, ?? like what's justice

Injustice profuse, and feeling like I'm two people

And both of 'em are pissed, cuz of their scarred souls and bruised egos

There's a war going on inside no man is safe from

That's why my heart's been beating like a bass drum since day one

I play dumb, but the stupidity is authentical

Mended by your own vengeance like war fed to the tormented

I meant it when I said it, but it doesn't mean a thing

Unless I die for my dream cuz that's what it means to be a king

I could march with a million men, would it even shake the ground

I could scream freedom from the top of my lungs, it wouldn't even make a sound

Let me break it down, I don't have a choice and my voice is too hoarse

I'm lost and my war of compass ain't exactly pointing due north

So I'm forced to standby with my hands tied

While millions of starving children look my right in my damn eyes

Here's your grand prize, you won the right to be disgusted

I've suffered mightly and I can finally discuss it

The struggle is eternal, eternal tug of war

That's why I scribe inside my journal and wonder what it's for

Corruption and war, that's what I saw since a young teen

It was the unseen that made these stains that I can't seem to rub clean

That just means I got to try harder like ???

If I want to be remembered as a fire starter that died a martyr

But why bother, it's a cumbersome under thumb

Even if they remember me it's as public enemy number one

And it serves me right for trying to preserve the light in such a dark place

Sharks wait in my conscious dreams and their schemes make my heart race

I march straight towards the unattainable and strangle out its life force

Its light source illuminates the elusive faith that I've lost

The halls of my mind have the hallmark of scratching claw marks

It's all dark, perfect place to fall apart if you lost heart

But me I've found mine and it's about time

The fire inside could outshine the silver lining on cloud nine

Still I'm wayward, cuz that's the way words sting

The pain is strong but that's the same song the caged bird sings

Feel like I'm in hell, cursed to dwell in a living tomb

With scars to serve as a reminder of these self inflicted wounds

[Coal Cash]

Will it ever change cuz I feel strange in my own skin

Rotten to the bone, if not my own heart is sewn in

Zone in my genetical code to to spit prophetical code

The theoretical hex vexed my poetical soul

Infect a whole generation's emanation, determination ain't shit verse self capitulation

Hard to change a nation when complacent in my status

Famish for accolades but rather fade til I vanish

Manage little reprieve in the middle of brittle beliefs

From the grief beneath the visual, our visuals will signal me

It's a dismal sea of free thinking thought extinction

Sinking in the doctrines from the toxins I've been drinking

A lot like Lincoln, holding my head for shit I said

Won't dread assassination, it embeds the affirmation

But it's acclamation from a vapid captivation

It's tasting acrid, adapted to lapidation

I deal with idiots oblivious to the insidious

But I'm the retard that sees God in the hideous

The prettiest of pictures will be riddled with mistakes

As humans are no different, how much difference does it make

I take it all in stride, riding clouds of smoking ash

And every time I fall I have to crawl on broken glass

It's just my path that winds me tight in a spiral

I've been here before, once more fight for survival

Was suicidal but I botched the attempt

It was worth every second, my ex watched the event

She ain't shit to me now, funny how times change

If only time was timeless, only my mind could rhyme this divine exchange

Remain chained in this dichotomy

Robbing me of the gifted like a self inflicted sodomy

Probably a sickness to spit this redundant

???? the pain I strain from its abundance

To run circumference around, slay this propaganda

Can't understand the truth when the exclude all the answers

Elude the chances for the monetary advances

For the heckler commentary that vary the common banter

Conjure cancer, plan to smoke the skies black

Trapped in an empty bar where the bartender won't buy back

So why rap, why react to the ridicule

Always been a little disturbed, was constantly ?? in middle school

That shit'll do shit to your psyche, thought no one liked me

It was a major problem, then again it still might be

I might free myself of the burden of ??

But uncertain of what's me like I see from third person

I'm fucked for certain but I'm working to find my essence

I know I'm trapped in hell, I can smell its effervescence

Destined to dwell in the shell, a forgotten artist

Who only seemed fitted when living amongst the garbage