Verse 1:

For the longest time

I thought I deserved it all

Never did I think

Any of it was wrong

When it's family

You blame yourself

They're supposed to love me

It can't be anything else

If I was different

Then they would

Never stopped to think

If they even could

I got older

Tried to date

They didn't love me

Thought it was fate

I was so broken

There was no repair

So I punished myself

With eternal despair

Used the victim card

And pitied myself

You can't blame me

I tried to get help

But really I didn't

I never let them in

I haven't tried to change

Since I can't remember when

Chorus:

Baby, being sad is so comforting

I want happiness but prefer suffering

Cause when it's bad it can't get worse

But when it's good it can also reverse

I don't trust ups, they can always go down

So I might as well always wear a frown

It's in my system, playing victim

Verse 2:

The word survivor

I think about a lot

Feels like I'm pretending

To be something I'm not

I did survive

But at what cost

When my identity

Is what I lost

At some point

You have to let go

But a voice inside

Warns me, "no"

Rock bottom is familiar

I'm too scared to rise up without her

Bridge:

People that have died

Knew me as sad

I know if I get better

They'll be looking down glad

But I don't like changing

Things they knew

Why do I have to do this

Without you

Chorus:

Baby, being sad is so comforting

I want happiness but prefer suffering

Cause when it's bad it can't get worse

But when it's good it can also reverse

I don't trust ups, they can always go down

So I might as well always wear a frown

It's in my system, playing victim

Outro:

It's in my system, playing victim

It's in my system, playing victim

It's in my system, playing victim

It's in my system, playing victim