[Intro]

It's hard to chill these days

It's hard to just lay back, chill

Know what I mean?

Alright, it's like you can't forget the feeling boy

So hard to chill man, there's always suttin' y'know?

Always suttin'

And you know what

Smoking's just making me feel even worse man

Know dat

Whatever man

I ain't even smoke to chill

I mean what's real boy?

What's real?

Real's having your own back boy

Gotta have your back boy

Nobody got my back like me man

I'm out to get mine girl

I'm out to get mine

[Verse 1]

Yo

I started this on my own

I'll see this through on my own

Continue this alone

Probably best left alone

Cause I've learned life is real

I can't help how I feel

Wish I was made of steel

Haven't quit, never will

But I think to myself

Will I make it off the shelf?

Boom par [?], I want some wealth

Maintain mental health

So I sit getting high

Asking when, asking why

Sleep with my samurai

Ready for any guy

I can't believe this is life

Full of pain, full of strife

Could resort to suicide

But I must live my life

Gotta fight, gotta fend

Know the lick, know the trend

Looks like we're nearly men

Wish we could start again

'Cause we was kids, we was young

Used to love having fun

Now we look up to gun

And the aim's only one

Make money every day

Any how, any way

I try to choose the legal way

But I really gotta say

[Hook]

Sometimes I wonder is this real, is this real?

Can life alone affect the way I feel, way I feel?

Wish I could just lay back and chill

But I really need to know is this real, is this real?

Sometimes I wonder is this real, is this real?

Can life alone affect the way I feel, way I feel?

Wish I could just lay back and chill

But I really need to know is this real, is this real?

[Verse 2]

I get high to get by

Sitting in the street like "Penny for the Guy?"

Police take snapshots of the drive-by

But I won't stick around, I'm camera shy

I get high to get by

Sitting in the street with my eyes in the sky

Friends all scatter, that girls act sly

And fellas want beef but they don't know why

I get high to stay calm

Sitting on the street with my face in my palm

Otherwise I would cause harm

With this knife on the hand on the end of my arm

I get high to stay wise

Sitting in the top floor of a high rise

They say I'm big but they don't know my real size

Whole teams take up the truth to the sky [?]

Truth is, somehow I climbed out of six car crashes last year

And every day it just gets more and more clear

That just maybe I'm meant to be here

And even though I got beef all over

I know one day it'll all be over

Stolen vehicles, guns, and crack

Roads and sections, the way I act

But yeah I still find time for my friends

And I hope they find time for each other

Treat that girl like she's your sister

Treat that boy like he's your brother

We done been through endless change, endless tragedy, endless trouble

Just stand firm and tall the end, no doubt we'll make it through the struggle

[Hook]

Sometimes I wonder is this real, is this real?

Can life alone affect the way I feel, way I feel?

Wish I could just lay back and chill

But I really need to know is this real, is this real?

Sometimes I wonder is this real, is this real?

Can life alone affect the way I feel, way I feel?

Wish I could just lay back and chill

But I really need to know is this real, is this real?