Right back at square one

It’s like I never left

Like the night returned to morning

An endless cycle of self

(Repeating over and over again)

Nothing but memories left on repeat

They saturate my bloodstream

They haunt me in my sleep

A virus

That I tried to deny

Seeping from beneath

Strangling my cries

You don’t know

Oh, but I do

How the silence fucking haunts you

When you step from out of view

Oh, now you’ll see

When my eyes go dark

It was always me

Now I’m right back at the starting line

All my progress has gone

Holding on to wasted time

The hours turn to seconds

I’m counting everyone

I’ll never find a savior

Under my own loaded gun

Addicted to the pain, except for my disdain

Disgusted with the man who shares my face

Standing in the mirror day after day

(Addicted to my own misery

You only saw the end)

I saw where it began

Self-destructive by my fucking nature

Self-indulgence is the only way out, fuck

Buried underneath the weight of things I couldn't change