Camera Shy

By Diesel Clockwork

Released on July 28, 2023

Thumbnail

[Intro: Bevy Smith]

I believe that nobody can be you but you. So you might as well show up, and show out. Be your most authentic self

What if you don’t really know who you are because you have suppressed your inner self, you’ve suppressed the core of you, you’ve suppressed the best parts of you because you took on these other identities and these personas in an effort to make your life better


[Verse 1: Diesel Clockwork]

Lately I been plagued by lack of confidence

Maybe that’s why I can’t take their compliments

Then vanity has me thinking the opposite

Think its probably time I put a fucking stop to this

Wish I never cared what they think

Hoping I can shake this but I’m weak

If it’s validation that you seek

Future’s looking bleak, someone rip this outta me, please

Know I earned it, but convinced I don’t deserve it

Hope its worth it, hope you know I put that work in

So concerning, thoughts I’d soon become a burden

Different wording, let it be, crisis averted

Got fears I’ll never reach their expectations

Or that I’ll never hear congratulations

Live to regret the day I didn’t take it

If this my chance, I promise I won't waste it


[Chorus: Diesel Clockwork]

Be myself

But who the fuck am I?

I won’t lie

Feels Like I’m wearing a disguise

Be yourself

But tell me who am I?

Think I got it right

We gonna see in due time


[Verse 2: Diesel Clockwork]

Camera shy

Damn I wonder why

It’s like every picture catch me on my bad side

Camera shy

Got no reason why

I’m working on it I just need a little bit of time

Shoot for the stars, but then my shot fell

Could never reach the heights I set for myself

I ain’t touch the charts, but one day I will

Be like my idols, got some big shoes to fill

How’d you do it? Man that must’ve been tough

Can’t take praise, I chalk it up to blind luck

Still he sees the source of motivation

My mission to convince the world I don’t suck

GoPro, point and shoot at me

Doing tricks you could only see on MTV

Time froze, had an epiphany

The music is exactly who I’m meant to be


[Chorus: Diesel Clockwork]

Be myself

But who the fuck am I?

I won’t lie

Feels Like I’m wearing a disguise

Be yourself

But tell me who am I?

Think I got it right

We gonna see in due time


[Outro: Bevy Smith]

Three questions: Who am I at my core? How am I being perceived? How would I like to be perceived?

And I believe in that!