If I was gonna lose ya

Why'd you say yes?

Could've avoided the hole in my heart

To leave me here to die, yeah, cry, yeah

Well at least I found I'm back at the start

Didn't pass "go", no

But do I get $200 though?

Cause I deserve that

But I guess I'll wait, nevermind I'll walk away

I'll never get past the pain

It's easy to look at your life

When everything's going alright

But until that time, when your life's not right

And your mind deep inside, beats you down in a fight

You try to push back

But it comes in spite of you knowing that

This isn't time to be flying like a child, no

You're a grown man

Take a last stand, before ya crash land it!

But you goin' down, down

Try to scream out loud

But if you try they're gonna

Think you're a coward

Keep it to yourself (hush)

Lookin for the paintbrush to show what's goin on

In that head you dread

Back to where I was

I was talkin' 'bout my love

Wait no- l-l-look at me stutter

As I talk about my lover (ugh!)

I'm on my deathbed, thinking about what I said

It's makin me upset this feeling that I dread

Hoping to be fed by something I misread

Oh wait- I'm a zombie! Don't listen to what I said

No wonder I copy

Cause I'm a sloppy

No good zombie with a body

I say zombie, you say groggy

I mean live with no emotion

You left me behind to live your own life

Grabbed your ticket, took off on your flight

I bought the ticket but lost you with it

So I'll sit back and enjoy you leave, right?

I don't mean to be bitter but I-

I just thought our love wasn't a lie

I just thought, I just thought

I just, I just wanna- NOT!

It's like a war in my head

Thoughts are running

I don't want it

But I seem to flaunt it

Put it all away what do I get?

Nothing in return

You don't believe me? Bet

It's like a war in my head

Thoughts are rushing

Lots of huffin, lots of puffin

I don't believe they're gonna catch up

Until I lie down and say pile up (pile up!)

Yeah when I popped the question (huh?)

Actually I don't even want to mention

The loss I mentioned with apprehension

Cause in the present

The pain's apparent, so now give me attention!

Cause nobody's gonna listen, no

Maybe I change up my vision, no

Maybe I know, maybe I don't

Maybe I'm better alone!

They keep on pressuring, crush me down, now there's less of me

There's no telling what else I'll become

Yeah, after they're done with me

I don't like to be dwelling on something

Seemingly messy and talking

Bad 'bout my mem'ries, but now they're here to get back at me

I'll be honest, I'm tired

Wanna kick back, let my thoughts run wild

So sick and fed up

Pinned down by my mind, now get up!

Cause that's what they think ; they think I am weak

That I don't like my face in the dirt

But how absurd cause I like it, it works

So push me back down and I'll show you what hurts! (yeah!)

Sending them evidence

That I will never be delicate

Bout to show them what's evident

Cause now I'm triggering eloquence (ah!)

Look at me tryin to pretend I got etiquette

Cause I know with these beats

I'm 'bout to be in my element (yeah)

This ain't the first time, last time, so make it rhyme

Make it climb in your prime all the time, anytime

Maybe during down time, maybe during half time

Maybe I'm supposed make it big during my lifetime (hah!)

What a joke

Now I'm living like I'm broke

Whether I'm a liar it don't matter cause I'm gonna choke

Yeah, I'm a choke choke ; right under that smoke

Cause I can't breathe, somebody help me

It's funny cause I am just standing there

With no way to breathe in the air

Suffocating devastating irritating complicating

Activating aggravating agitating isolating me