[Verse 1]

My life just got sucked out of me

No inspiration, no creativity

Wouldn’t it be better in my fantasy

But I can’t stand all the thoughts that I bleed

I think I’ve lost my passion in music

Now I just do it like I have to do it

So anxious about my future career

Things keep getting worse when I steer

Fear is being injected into my system

Worries and duties are making me not listen

Whenever I let it all out I feel inclined

To make a random mixtape to relieve my mind

But instead it just causes more trouble

My style and persona keeps getting awful

I can never keep myself in check

This has been going on for too long, I’m such a mess

I’m sucking my mind dry of ideas

Head so dead from thinking and traumas

I’m no good at recording, I’m no good at producing

I’m no good at writing, so what am I good at?

Brain so creative and innovative

But I don’t have any idea of presenting it

Spit it out, I’m imaginative

I say I love the Lord but I don’t live it

Different words pop out and appeal to me

I don’t do this for the power, fame, or money

Is my genius vision a gift or a horrible curse

It’s so unbearable that I feel like getting merked

How may I ever survive in this world

In the darkness and tough times I just curl

I must overcome my fears of being alone

Yeah I’m independent, I’m a lone wolf

Uh, I’ve forgotten all the important things

Now I’m just rambling on some random things

Desultory stage, I’m just recycling lyrics

Comatose phase, I’m just in my movement

My body won’t listen I’m not moving on

I’m just so stuck up on these types of songs

No hooks or bridges it’s just me alone

Only one verse, no features I’m solo

So much for planning to join a label right?

I keep wanting and pushing, internal fight

I’ve been stressing way too hard on my music

With school I got no days off, I’m gonna lose it

My grades are suffering, I am suffering

Will there be any hope that the future will bring?

My will of fire is drowning, I can’t keep control

Young and active yet I feel so stiff and old

Now I question my purpose and my life

Going blind from the mist I’m losing sight

Pushing myself over the limit, over the edge

Zombie on a journey heading to a ledge

What happened to me and my patience

What happened to my powerful motivation

I know I’ve said my actions are unexplainable

But from here on out I’m tryna make it say able

Energy all depleted I need to regain my sleep

Whole body aching and run down, I’m so weak

Broken promises all stored in my record now

I just talk the talk I’m gonna expect some doubt

Skeptics, cynics, and unbelievers mock me

The rain and wind are so strong against me

Pinnacle of stress and failure, climax

All of my haters hope to see me fall, Cinemax

I go hard cause I’m afraid of seeing myself lose

I act so hard like I got something to prove

My carelessness is off the charts

How can I ever call any of my works art?

KJH dedication you will always be remembered

Unlike me I’d be fading under the weather

There ain’t no use for being depressed

I always feel like I owe a heavy debt

All these stuff are such a nuisance

But I shouldn’t be complaining about my grievance

Yo Kyle, how did you get through each day?

All these are little things compared to your pain

Man even with your problems you put on a smile

For me I always smiled but now it hurts to smile

Filled with trials and tribulations, my journey is long

Where do you get your willpower to carry on?

Yeah I always take life for granted and whine

So why don’t we switch places, you live and I die?

I’ve lost my force, I’ve lost my drive

My strength is diminishing therefore I cannot thrive

But Kyle that ain’t something that you would say

Yeah you would carry on every single day

Man homie, I miss you so much

Just seeing old photos of you ain’t ever enough

I wonder what it would be like if you were still here

That one memory of seeing your face is so clear

Those old times are the ones worth remembering

Dreaming of you, I can’t stop reminiscing

I shouldn’t complain when life gets tough

Because I’m sure compared to yours, you had it more rough

Going off of this I will continue to power through

And I believe that one day I will make it through