[Intro]
Hopefully I could stop spitting desultory after this
But there’s always just so much going on in my mind
Bet they might get sick and bored of my voice
Too bad I’m a lone wolf
[Verse 1]
My apologies, to those I might offend
Just tryna beat those dwelling rhymes out my head
It kills my precious time, my Rolex ain’t faceless
Rap when I want, I ain’t your entertainment
Broken bones, dirty body, frantic breath pouring
Skin covered in sweat, a sloth hard at working
It might come to your sense that my music is trash
Way it was mean to be, but I told you it wouldn’t last
True fans and fam, I thank you and will reward you
Skeptics and haters don’t tell me what to do
Boxed in, in this lonely and sickening cage
Story of my life, writing page after page
I see eagles at the top, gazing stars every night
Pushing to the limit, I ain’t gonna lose this fight
Lemme fly away with ya J-Lin and Kevin Martin
The rocket is launching in 3, 2, 1, outta Houston
Yeah you know, it’s been a long time coming
Witches from wardrobes with apples got me running
Excuse me I’m just so tired
Sea of flames, I burn through the fire
Cold leftovers from dinner on the many dishes
Gotta supplement myself so I don’t diminish
Frightened in the dust, thoughts down on cement
I’m what’s left of the friendship, poor little remnant
[Verse 2]
On that Facebook while playing NBA 2K11
Yeah, did it almost every day 24/7
Brain bombed it’s comatose 9/11
I could be one day too late, got no time to lose
Shout out to my man Donny that line sounds so true
Rolls-Royce, this stuff got me day dreaming
Money, power, and fame all that is deceiving
My head and mind keeps throbbing
Face feels sore, teeth hurts down to the core
Fake smile when I’m angry, sad, and bored
Pulling off my mask knowing that I’ll be ignored
Oblivious, neglected, overlooked, and rejected
Should’ve known sooner that I would be avoided
Disastrous plans all crumble no more D.R.O.C.s
Bullets to my heart, received enough shots
Tryna get my life straight, I keep getting older
So I better hurry up, everything’s outta order
Committed no actions, fingers and palm still muddy
Thoughts of burden and grudges, I’m already bloody
Digesting food for thought, crumbs in my mouth
Stargazer young blood, knowledge is my route
Stare upon the house that has a view
Uh, dandruff, dust, bugs, and crumbs, ew
Homesick not homesick, need for a plane ticket
Toronto or Utah anywhere I can chill for a minute
Uh, not tryna say that I despise Sea Town
Just need some air, really feeling down
Forest tree’s leaves all wet on the ground
Yelling , screaming, crying, arguing are so annoying
Elements of my nature, totally changed
Losing control of my wheel, Lord take the reins
My family don’t treat me like a family member
Things they did to me I know they won’t remember
Laughed at and teased at, yeah I stink and I fail
Messing me like I don’t see, I should read braille
Still respect my elders, of course they think their better
Treated the worse out of all, to my little ones I’ll never
Sketchy hood, ain’t close to rich compared to Bellevue
On Sundays obnoxious kids bother me and my crew
Most likely you won’t feel what I mean
But if you do certainly holla at me, yeah
[Verse 3]
Uh, let it all out
Isn’t this what it’s all about
Random, desultory, and inconsistent
But I didn’t really give a care, you don’t have to listen
At school shaking my head for my brethren
Like I said, I don’t intend to offend
Dramas over nonsense, and I ain’t exaggerating
Reason I’m at Cascadia, escaping the gossiping
The students at homecoming and their after parties
While I type my lyrics all lonely
My bro Jeffrey always ask why I don’t feel sad
Maybe cause I’m so used to the lifestyle, happy lad
Mixtapes, gaining experience over experiments
Album is for the masterpiece, know y’all ain’t content
Yeah, told you a milli to trust and believe
If you can’t follow me on, feel free to leave
Personal reasons I know, it’s my mind’s fault
Control and delete, but I can’t find the alt
Not tripping over my walk cause my vision’s 20/20
Valley of shadow of death, it’s a long journey
The Real JGKC, unashamed, on my 116
Triple JMC and Martyr Faction are in the mix
Apologies to my homie Macrowave
Only one to seem willing, there will be a day
First lemme just get this outta the way
We blowing up, gotta fix up my China Lake
Patience is key, watch me run this marathon
Irrelevant beginning, keep on with the telethon
[Verse 4]
Materialism problems, I’m taking life for granted
Could be enjoying every God made cell but I haven’t
Blueprint for success is failure, must do my calling
Repping for the Lord till I die, morning and evening
Going in, not from nothing to something
Been showed care and love, my time for loving
Absolute love won’t stop, yeah no stopping
When God materializes it adds to my conviction
Future history, off my chest, out my mind
Halt my fool’s paradise and continue my rhymes and lines
What I’ve said was wrong, man such heavy burdens
Not a slave to the serpent of old’s bluffs, still learning
Obviously I go ahead of myself, must do my purpose
Not what I want, but what I’ve got, all I need is basics
Blooming legacy, flame as bright as a dragon’s
Mountain laurel sprouting in the comeback season
Buoy, I already murdered myself, that’s right
Rest in peace to my darkness, hopefully I’ll see the light
Excited as Gowe and Macklemore represent I admit
Now the moment is the K-More, BeHi, Rain, Both, Red kid’s
I suck and don’t like free styling, especially in public
But I’m still a rapper and poet, get your facts fixed
Please don’t judge me or I might go harsh
Animus locked up but don’t you disrespect my art
Bite your lips and tongue before claiming I’m a gangster
Ordinary human with a poetic remedy, I’m a writer
Love for screenwriting, books, movies, and game stories
Normal, I’m worth a couple cents, you too are likely
Hate my fantasy so much, I use it to escape reality
Addicted fiend, this very Earth I wanna leave
Puddles of tears this world of calamity is full of pain
Even if the sunshine erases the rain, my heart will still stay the same
Uh, Detox