This is homesickness...

Slept through my alarm, woke from a nightmare and it's hard to tell the difference

Just hollow acts to follow, scratch tomorrow off the wishlist

And stand tall and proud while the welcome mat is slipping

This is the land of "How's your day?" "None of your business"

Where that faint glimmer of hope only comes when you blink and miss it

Instant sob story, tell 'em today was a tearjerker

And a million hands are reaching out saying they know it hurts, but...

Cry me a river and I'll piss you a puddle

Cause either I don't give a fuck or my compassion's too subtle

I'm past the fool's trouble of weeping cause you struggle

Where I walk everyone got a shiny pin to burst bubbles

And the others are muzzled with silver spoons

Never gotta see the sidewalks crack to form tombs

Street light filaments pop trying to cover up the wounds

From that lucky shot in the dark that shook a whole platoon

I stomp through clutching a grudge in my hand

Throw caution to the wind where my friend used to stand

And the corner characters are all the same

Used to be handing em trust with every single pound I gave

Now I'm slapping 'em disgust and ain't returning their gaze

So stop trying to find a friend hiding underneath the daze

New page, old book, scarred face, don't look

There's a place reserved for everyone where the bodies are put

The meaning of life is just too long to stand through

Where doorbells play the music that the dead dance to

Homesickness -

This is the place that I used to call home

Homesick -

It's just another backyard warzone

Home -

And you could stand right in the middle alone

Cause everybody knows there's just no place like home

Home is where the heart is

That's a coffee cup and a subway token for the heartless

Coughing up his life and choking down your garbage

With a prime seat to watch gold paved streets tarnish

While the paint leaks on 'em and drips down through the cracks

Where the trains reap harvests of dreams fell to the tracks

Some seek that light at the end of the tunnel 'til they fall flat

But weather never follows Little Orphan Annie's forecast

There's veterans with bottles on the corner selling war masks

Sun ain't coming out tomorrow so we follow storms, half steppin'

Ten bucks for them neatly packaged weapons

And then creep into a staircase with a cheap bootleg of heaven

Where every scar is proof you'll never learn your lesson

Who's next is the burning question

Use your head at your discretion

Cause there are no good intentions

And no one cares what you think

Floating along on a cloud while everyone's hoping you sink

Froze in a blink, sucking a picket fence dream

Wake up on receiving ends of disappearing machines

You'll tear at the seams

The Garden of Eden reduced to short stumps

Where life's rough so cats carry clips full of shortcuts

And they're eager to show you the end

Bit the hand that feeds so many times there's nothing left to extend

Just hope those blinking lights don't mark the final breaths of a friend

Keep walking 'til you find a warm hole in the wall to rest your head

Stuck in a box cold sweating

Stare out the window where the demons run free and let it all set in

Aftermath of Pandora, Hellraiser wedding

And you're forced to sleep on the dirty honeymoon bedding

Homesickness -

Today's lesson is duck and run

Homesick -

And leave the light on for something that never comes

Home -

Look happy or you'll ruin all the fun

Throw your hands in the air if you know that you're scum

Every other second's a deep breath before the bad news

And the wreckage of each step's too much to get through

Speak for yourself or somebody less important

Or you'll find out hubris makes a great lining for coffins

Cemetery street where the madmen walk clumsy

With crooked smirks bearing their teeth, worn ugly

Just trying to make that smiley face stick where the lips split

And ending up with 'em stitched closed, homesickness

Homesickness

Homesickness

Homesickness