I walk back and forth trying to remember why I’m here

My name is gone

I have no fear

Falling to my knees

I only wish to be free

Hold my breath

Hold onto my mind

Cracking apart

Falling like the world around me

A world of hate

Brought into

The emptiness

Without a name

The world consistently forgets

My name is gone

I have no fear

Falling to my knees

I only wish to be free

We fight ourselves

Through offensive colors

The eyes we use

Dilute each other

Spoken into reality

Shattеred formalities

Paint yourself

Through brokеn lives

The weak shall sleep

While the moon cries

I no longer recognize myself

I am just

Just a shell of a former name

Blasphemy

Eternal shame

Existential loving

Thoughts arouse

Deceitful and cunning

Pollution in our minds

Not polluted plots

Wondering

Why I'm still here

I’ll end it all

No time to fear

When Ilit calls my name

I won’t care if you’re near

No I don’t get why I have to write such putrid things

But what does it matter if it helps me feel

I try to be better

But I just feel drained again

Corroded eyes

Revert to lies

Corroded lives

Blisters begin forming underneath my eyes

I'm always here

A broken thing

Not something to hold onto me

I genuinely don’t understand how not a single person can read between these things and tell me I’m okay, I’m really not, this isn’t even a story anymore

Intrinsic and Ego Death and so many blatant songs that give you reason

But I guess it’s accountability you lack

And not a single sense of urgency

I just hope it all makes sense when everything fades away

I just hope that everything makes sense when everything fades away